She: Finale...

Self reduced isolated,

    Behaviorally suggested altruism unobtainable reality induced depression, A cognitive forlorn avoidable throbbing with dissonance regret: Hurt... Persistent state of hurt, Ever attempting to shrouded 'do I even exist' realism angry at the question, Of course 'I' do... But shouldn't I have naught ignored the vows of suicide in the darkest dark while the world, You're all silent... Silently asleep, Dreaming of hope... A renowned impressionable delusion I've never began a harbinger's most destitute feet struggle endeavor, A trampling pursuit of one's own invisible momentarily captured future, Written within our quickening destruction. 

In lieu of...
An ending: And,
Our beginning,
Where I...
I should have,
Should have,
Stayed...!
(For therein)
(Brilliantly)
(I knew...)
(No pain)
(Truly...)
(Pookie)
(Face)

I should have,

    Stayed ignored and alive, For beside you... No matter infinitely what: The world was alive, All was a bell-end of beauty, Alongside a vermillion blind eyed without glasses beauty!

In lieu...
See you,
Soon.

She... ***

... ... ...

    The greatest F.Y.I ever...!?! I never wanted to escape you, You're the most significant happen didn't know I wanted stance ever taken, Ring upon our fingers, You're unfathomably asking... I played pretend at nothing in any second, This ending of mine... Is due unwillingly to the eternity I've always hated! G-d is everything and nothing, Loathsome of our existence, Since that fated burgundy sky lit day, I'm but a servant of the uncomprehensible truth I'll never understand; Though I found love, Only in you.

In lieu of your...
Continued smilings...!
I'm sorry.
So sorry.
Sorry...
Fin.

I am plague,

Forever thorns,

Wounding everyone,

Insecurities' onslaught,

From within I won,

No one; Ever,

Overcame!

Doubt,

Despair,

Depression,

Death...

It's all...

Too heavy

Alone

 

 Life... 

Is the storm,

That shapes me...

I am plague,

Words as thorns,

Painful toxicity written,

Brooding addictive insecurities,

Born of the million bone stars,

The infinite fathom I call...

Frozen in words: home,

Recall the hope matter,

A heart of stone,

Cancer is me,

I am death,

Undone!

Hope!

 Have you ever,

Experienced love,

As a metaphoric excuse,

Words of judgement,

Aimed to shape you,

An ultimatum or...

Else: Abandon,

You would,

Forever,

Be...!

If you're a man...

Quantify the question;

Origin source;

If you're;

An...

Asshole!

She... XIXxX

Self reduced isolated,

    Behaviorally suggested altruism unobtainable reality induced depression, A cognitive forlorn avoidable throbbing with dissonance regret: Hurt... Persistent state of hurt, Ever attempting to shrouded 'do I even exist' realism angry at the question, Of course 'I' do... But shouldn't I have naught ignored the vows of suicide in the darkest dark while the world, You're all silent... Silently asleep, Dreaming of hope... A renowned impressionable delusion I've never began a harbinger's most destitute feet struggle endeavor, A trampling pursuit of one's own invisible momentarily captured future, Written within our quickening destruction. 

In lieu of...
An ending: And,
Our beginning,
Where I...
I should have,
Should have,
Stayed...!
(For therein)
(Brilliantly)
(I knew...)
(No pain)
(Truly...)
(Pookie)
(Face)

Sister... III

To The Sister: My Only!

      You're the best parts of everything influencing the most damaged parts of myself. I persist in this life because of you: Ammie too! Never forget that your smile encourages me more than anyone and I'm but the elder: 'Sometimes Brother.' If there ever was a G-d (S)he was empowering me and you, to influence the future. If it's only the inevitable, well your love is always overwhelming the best poetic parts of me: Ammie too! xXx

In lieu of...
The season,
Of dying!

Life,

Revert to draft, Unaccomplished existence, A requiem of for dreams!

In lieu of,

Reincarnate…

If I;

Could but,

Die; Writing!

Commence,

Whatever,

Future,

After.