Thursday, January 14, 2021

She... XIXxX

Self reduced isolated,

    Behaviorally suggested altruism unobtainable reality induced depression, A cognitive forlorn avoidable throbbing with dissonance regret: Hurt... Persistent state of hurt, Ever attempting to shrouded 'do I even exist' realism angry at the question, Of course 'I' do... But shouldn't I have naught ignored the vows of suicide in the darkest dark while the world, You're all silent... Silently asleep, Dreaming of hope... A renowned impressionable delusion I've never began a harbinger's most destitute feet struggle endeavor, A trampling pursuit of one's own invisible momentarily captured future, Written within our quickening destruction. 

In lieu of...
An ending: And,
Our beginning,
Where I...
I should have,
Should have,
Stayed...!
(For therein)
(Brilliantly)
(I knew...)
(No pain)
(Truly...)
(Pookie)
(Face)

Sunday, January 10, 2021

Sister... III

To The Sister: My Only!

      You're the best parts of everything influencing the most damaged parts of myself. I persist in this life because of you: Ammie too! Never forget that your smile encourages me more than anyone and I'm but the elder: 'Sometimes Brother.' If there ever was a G-d (S)he was empowering me and you, to influence the future. If it's only the inevitable, well your love is always overwhelming the best poetic parts of me: Ammie too! xXx

In lieu of...

The season,
Of dying!

Friday, January 1, 2021

Life,

Revert to draft, Unaccomplished existence, A requiem of for dreams!

In lieu of,
Reincarnate…

If I;
Could but,
Die; Writing!
Commence,
Whatever,
Future,
After.

Wednesday, November 11, 2020

Dying,

    Silent and unread...

In lieu,
Not long,
Now...

Tuesday, September 29, 2020

Finality definition,

    All can sparkle, Hope's most invalued contagion must, (but all viruses) Thrive amongst the threat of our dire admittance to the be afterlife accepted die... We're beyond any-everything responsible to inspire, Despite an imbued shame, which is the most honest crime!

In lieu of our attendance,
In watching the world burn...
Listening to the sirens...
Pretending it will...
All pass away...!

Wednesday, September 2, 2020

Ever Fallible... IX

Inexcusable legends,

    Vocalized gasp mouth escaping vicious ambition twisted selfish sell anything mischief stumbling, Falsely towards the scalping paid for rumbling voice of indoctrinated fucked everyone without being labelled rich and dangerous: Ignored and laughing!

In lieu of,
Empathy existing,
As a paraplegic...
Under thumb of,
Inept ruling(s)!