A Trinity of a Broken Heart's Love

Please don't regain what's lost
It's pride left so long behind you
Heavy is the crown and its cost
Which takes you ten shores from truth

Emotions can't guide the soul
Only the weakest portion the heart
Which has trouble letting go
It leads the mind from being still
To a constant state of afraid

If I let pride destroy you
Let you fall off your high horse
Would you reach out without regret
To find my hand reaching through the pain
Never letting go never saying this is what you get
Always by your side and never in hiding
Close your eyes and it'll all be okay
Don't let the taste of real life scare you
Through the wounds your future lies
I'll always be silent still and searching
Only in death shall I walk away

Fear was my only present
A lovers grand achievement
For which I so often apologize
To evade the opinions of evil doers
Yet I walked right in front of the tribunal
Judged with vile half truths and presumptions

Embrace the soul shift
The mind follows so quick
How wise and so very clever
Instill the emotion behind the reason
Think of who I am and who you are
The damage you caused to us all
Was it worth the fame you accomplished

I was right there until you sold me
Auctioned me off without regret
That's not what your mouth from heart spoke
But it's what your soul and mind said
An un-united universal trinity
Of the two controlled by one
Too much internal damage
My heart mind and soul
Was this worth it all

Angry Tie Death

I hope God isn't angry
Think I died without wearing a tie
Can't remember if I was drunk that night
Should have rearranged
But life I was going nowhere
Going nowhere

Did heaven kick me out
It's gray and raining
A city of perpetual twilight
C.S Lewis Mentioned the place
All because I didn't wear it
That damn Sunday tie

I'd give up poker Monday night
Or selfish orgasms in my girl
Online first person shooter games
I hacked just to make take their lives
M.M.O's I lived in the external didn't change

What the fuck
Can't make up for the time I had
Don't tell me I'm going nowhere
Going nowhere

Fuck I hope God isn't angry
I died not wearing a tie
Can't remember if I was drunk that night
Should have rearranged
But life was going nowhere
Going nowhere

Fuck heaven kicked me out
It's gray and raining
A city of perpetual twilight
C.S Lewis Mentioned this place
All because I didn't wear it
That damn Sunday suite and tie
Mom said tip top for Church
Or you'll end up in hell
Going nowhere

Inspired by Searching eyes

Behind the frozen once enflamed sands
Above shoulders that bare colour imbued images
Not of a diety but of a beautiful place to be
Eyes breathe oxygen in the waking dream
Hope sters in the recesses of the mind
I am the villain hope will never reach

Behind eyes of abandon
Lies anguish amidst mercy
Yet I cannot rescue the princes
Take a deep breath before I move on
Moving into a distance never in range
Away from the self created prison

Sadly your not my struggle
I am but a tumor upon this world
And yet I live, breath and feel
With every moment I turn andsay goodbye
What war awaits my un-numbed inner eye

Behind eyes of searching
Lies anguish seeking mercy
Yet I cannot rescue any princes
Take a deep breath before I die
Moving into a distance called the grave
A self dug trench my own six foot prison

Preys The Sun

I am the sun
Dark now are my days
Militaries march upon dusk
While planes craft cities into ashes
All the while children pitter patter
Bare foot upon concrete
Until next we meet
I am all that watches each day
Rinsing hands only to repeat

Oh my vacant lidless eyes
I see our daily tragedy
Rejoice at the moon
She take my place in the sky
Don't worry I only hide
For a broken hearted while
A moment time dark is the day

All violent be my disease
Gone each eve at twilight
Be ghosts of death in darkness
Flashlights and flares they torment
The moon She cries as I hide
Residing on another world is seems
The rich wage war in corporations
Instead of fire and ash crafting machines
Behold the gray twilight
Not all is at it seems

Oh my vacant lidless eyes
I see our daily tragedy
Rejoice at the moon
She take my place in the sky
Don't worry I only hide
I'll be back again
At the breaking of dark into day

Behold the gray twilight
Not all is at it seems
Behold the corporate dream
The monetary ownership of all
Over ever class of citizen
Behold the breaking dawn
Not even the dawn
Shall hide your screams

A Gray Silence

In the gray silence
I ponder many Psalms
Beside my sleeping child
Only this comes into my mind
That society is a greed disease

It's mid day
But oddly still gray out
An everlasting twilight
From morning till dusk falls

Oh sweet child
Held in the obsidian
Arms full but barren of smile
Attempt to imagine
Living on just for a while

Fuck, it's midnight
But oddly still gray out
An everlasting twilight
From morning till dusk falls

Now I pray to the darkness
Just to be reminded of blue skies
Lies Of a purchased companion
Stolen from my arms
During the gray twilight

In the gray silence
I ponder many Psalms
Beside a sleeping child
Who I rescue daily but isn't even mine
All I can comes into my mind
Is that society was a disease
The tension of it now gone

Redemption Fantasy

Behold the image behind closed doors
In this world alone you speak your mind
It invades the truth of your waking eyes
A lie decaying your unstable ground

Believe it's true
That it can set you free
Believe in the mind's eye fantasy
It can be anything but redemption
Are you afraid to live...

Fear never leaves always present
Even in the simple dreams where you hide
Evade dodge resist parry or deny reality
Will you stand when the time comes
Not for pride but simply to survive

Believe it's true
That it can set you free
Believe in the mind's eye fantasy
It can be anything but redemption
Are you afraid to live...

Betwixt the nether of a lie ridden reality
Redemption of self isn't the greatest truth
It is the concept of speaking amidst the torment
Even quite simple words for which you never apologize

Even believing it's only half true
That the softly whispered sacrifice can rescue
Not the self but so that it all may continue
Believe in the mind's eye dream
As the fiction dismantles reality
As you fall from your once stable ground
Redemption of life given for a struggle
Were you afraid to live...

I'm so fucking proud
As we look back now
At the day you broke free
Woke from your distant nightmare
To grasp as the waking dream
Just beyond the fear
Of which you used to hide
Welcome to a brighter future
Because of those who chose
To step forward and die

Believe it's true
That it can set you free
Believe in the mind's eye fantasy
It can be anything but redemption
Are you afraid to live...

The Why to Come

What am I still breathing for
You wait for the traitor's door
He comes knocking
But I tell him to just go away

Why won't you come
Tell us why
Why won't you come
Just come, just come

Opened my defenceless door
Can't deal with the waiting anymore
He came knocking and I answered
I died defending my home
My mind were all my secrets hide
Remain safely intact as I die

Why do children still cry
Tell me why won't you come
Starvation and plague ruins life
Yet you don't come
Untamed and idle you watch
Why won't you come
Just come,

I held the cradle
Of the last womb born child
Is this moment what I was breathing for
Death came knocking at my door
I screamed as I greeted his wide grin
Secrets all lay bare I beckoned him come in
I was ready to die standing
In a pool of tears

Why won't you come
We can't suffer to wait anymore
I the whore of my secret mind
Laboring to escape day and night
Crafted a world in which to hide
A dream written not drugs or some tragic lie
Tonight you come or I die
So just come

Why won't you come
Tell us why
Why won't you come
Just come, just come