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I wish my brother had died
So I could know the feelings of pain
To help me identify to aid you all
I wish my grandfather hadn't of past away
I hate the feelings of desiring such pains
It brings my whole being into a realm of shame
For speaking such a wish for my own unselfish name

Fuck your mass consumption
As you run into a delusion of less pain
Instead let the lyrics of music help you sway
Become alive feel the air your breathing
Savor the tears you should be crying
We all want to see the real unbridled you

Now I sit in sleepless night
While tears scream down from my eyes
No one to catch me when I'm on the verge
Ready to burst forth into a true adventure and die
There is no acceptance on earth only death
For those who exist to dream like we do

Fuck the cob-webs of spider like silence
Dancing with fancy riddles of pleasure
I'm sorry to say its just regret of zombies
Speaking fairy tales of dies into your head
Blood stained roses are a pungent sign
That your frustrated life long ago should have past on

Run into addictions to feel a secure acceptance
The delusional image escapes your breath with that hug
Into a world of pain will your mind be swept away
The lyrics of all time allow your soul to sway within
Awake to feel alive grasp the meaning of air in your lungs
Savor the tears your eyes should be crying
We all want to see ourselves fly with infinite wings

But I want to blow that image away
Screaming unending meaningless lyrics
As I run down the infinite hallways of life
Spare me from a vast wasted lifetime
Walk up behind me and blow away my mind

Fuck the vacant daydreams that keep you actionless
Dance like conformists on a vacant social stage
No artistic freedom and the higher ups deny you fair wage
Jump when the high rollers wants to see something
Stand aside and abide your never to come time
Because you lack the will to take any sort of action

Fear Me Pageant Beauty

Premade personality templates
Storm the stage in bikinis as they waves
The ignorant father claps with pride
As his pageant beauty passes by

So the world shall fear me
Light funeral pyres in my heart
They hate the uniqueness of my flesh
Breeding the silence in my mind

Wish I could be there or watch it on TV
But the viewing could kill me
The mundane repetition of answers
Breathed forth from ugly mental silence
They are all the same but don't support equality
All princesses bread for crowning
Or the depression of loss
In believing the ignorant words
Of their supporters treachery

In the baby Jesus there is no tomorrow
You can breath grand mistakes
But not like death we gave the Christ
We broke and raped the flesh
Of a normal man's prophetic life
In a baby still called Jesus
There is no tomorrow

The world should fear me
The darkness of silence in my mind
The funeral pyre for their comfort in my heart
The eruption of my patience kills
Your premade template personality
To break the violence of your doubt

The world shall fear the ignorance in conformity
The vote is out from the grand jury in your minds
The expanse of your intolerance spoken from your eyes
The breaking point of violence from your hearts
You should fear a love you cannot image
The charity of truth in absolute equality

In the baby Jesus there is no tomorrow
Once was spoken to have risen
But by men of weakness it was written
The pain of angels is the darkness of night
The day is a demonic flame of their play time
The moon is the tears of devils that filled a circular vile
The sun an ancient angelic token of forever undying light
In a baby Jesus there is no hope for tomorrow

Only in the living today
Can equal future have a tomorrow
Only in the chosen uniform unconformity moment
Will we find truth for our final hours
Only in the truth of that life will we find truth denied
Our wills broken down by science
Or a subliminal question unanswered
Our souls filled with hope of equality conformity
In a baby Jesus there is no tomorrow
Only in the unanswered questions of this life
Will we find absolute forever in tomorrow

Vocals

Rip out my vocal chords
I want rhythm in all life's accords
Written for equality destined
For a future unselfish community

Fuck finding the way into my heart
You can't afford to find my reasons
I'm too focused to breath like you do
So fear on, and fuck that research into my heart

Don't stand beside me until your will is tall
I'd rather walk blind than live with your life's purpose
I need to see the driest desert
To exist in deepest winter
So my heart might be clear
To stand with my mind and not fall

I hate my life is a reality you never knew
There is nothing I won't give up
To exist now opposite as you do
I'll ram out of all houses' walls
To run into the coldest winter
Against your fools pride embed in evil
Desires of a selfish mind
There is no will set against you
Only a comfort box encircles your heart
Show me the door I'll grasp the tides of winter
Upon the swells of open ocean so peaceful
In the end my vanquished self in harmony
Can stand against you all
This is my purpose to fight the lack of purpose
Inside the fucking empty shell you call a life

Fuck finding the way into my heart
You can't afford to find my reasons
I'm too focused to breath like you do
So fear on, and fuck that research into my heart


In disbelieve I watch as you follow blind
Equal to your own self provoked opinions
I have no time for your back water country rhymes
Into equality I spread my wings to fly

Elven light

Angelic light like elven light
Fearful we are of the coming dawn
There isn't any peace in our souls tonight

The ancient tick of our new age clock
Turn the tables back remember the inside place
Its now conquered by our sense of comfort space
But if I must I'll deconstruct until your evil will is gone

Believe me lets be real locked in this truthful moment
Only right there is no plea to withstand the will of night
The darkness enveloping your sickened soul

Its not alright... alright
we're not alright.... alright
You are all the vast servants of sin
Unable to stand against your own comfortable self contained boxes
I awake and rise to meet my ending moments
Even as might knees might quake
I won't back down tonight
Its that time for me, the elven angelic light awaits

Angelic light like elven light
Fearful we are of the coming dawn
There isn't any peace in our souls tonight

I await the dawn
The impending doom of us all
You can step back into dust return
Soon we'll all be like you
Its just the manner in which we choose
We'll enter elven angelic eternity
At the dawning of the Son's light

The whitest light will never oblige your comfort soul
Evil will against equality within you exists too fluently this night
Embrace the elven light or be devoured by satan's grace tonight
His harmony is your structure of self tortured imminent intensity
I awake step back against the rise of selfish will in the self called my

Generate the Lying Structure Inside

Harmony from no structure comes
Peace destruction has the system done
There is no time like the moments of now to awake

Then maybe the fear will evaporate
Leaving your veins time to regenerate
All the secrets once hidden deep within
I learned true love and now I know absolute hate
Is it funny I should say anger advanced my soul

Equality spat back in my face
There isn't enough truth bound in hate
For this generation to find true love
Only a fancy heroic fairy tale have their dreams become
So willing to bind themselves in shame
Scribing poisons in words the meaning they'll never know

All hope for innocent was lost in pacifism
The true war is against your own inner rage
The cage of ignorance you adore in your own soul
Your heart is vast but too dark to care
You've got your simple homely dreams
So should I just let you seek them and let you go

I'll save you the breathing words
A white dove has more natural love than you
But because of you I'm bound to stand at the well of hate
When I needed you most you spat words of hope back into my face
Your spirit fucked another man's shameless soul I know
Don't hold your chin up acknowledge now the peace in your disgrace
You were never very clear fucked my mind on this abandonment ride

Now I know my home is gone they took your side so long ago
Bullshit they believe your half truths but call me king of shame and lies
When it comes to speaking sweat looking angelic ones like you control
I'll carry the shame for both of us if you'll let me know one thing

If you could leave me now in the dust amongst your ever changing dreams
Would you abandon me again, leaving me for the camouflage of another's arms
To hide your own inner rage someday you'll deliver the truth and bind your soul's fate
Someday, but I hope I never come to know.
If you could change, again I say don't let me know

The question is: if now should your lies stay here or in clear truth vacate away?
Don't you realize your not really even my friend
All the evil believers call me the great sin
While you hide yours away to allow the fucking vanquishing of my very will

Sickened by Symptoms

Exist in a world crippled by toys
Red X isn't offline, its the mode of anger
Self created you can't any longer deny
Fingers hesitate to type www to view images of ill content
Or feed the sociality like crack addiction online

While you sleep cleanse yourself
The medicated high from your veins
The drool from your mouth
The sleep from your eyes
As the howitzers blast to deconstruct your mind
Preparing all you are for the incoming onslaught
The demon will stop time for you no more hands turning
He focuses words to keep you from the total break down
The only chance to see and rebuild your own life

Sickened by symptoms of mental torment
Suffering in desires for water we pipe dream away
Saddened by jesters dancing in clean air in my head
Struck from post melodic civilization's equality hate

Crops harvested for waste cry out in shame
The past is a resolution to forget for a civilized world
Lets drink our minds into dependance on the machine
For our comfort and high overdose pastures are green
No clean water left to cleanse our pasts away

Hope from a few can't save those who remain unaware
The conscious blind the God She can't make whole again
Rip out your insides to find mechanical parts
Soon you'll be after youself no concept left of compasion
This time you'll wipe yourself from the face of the earth

Sickened by symptoms of mental torment
Suffering in desires for water we pipe dream away
Saddened by jesters dancing in clean air in my head
Struck from post melodic civilization's equality hate

While you sleep cleanse yourself
The medicated high from your veins
The drool from your mouth
The sleep from your eyes
As the howitzers blast to deconstruct your mind
Preparing all you are for the incoming onslaught
The demon will stop time for you no more hands turning
He focuses words to keep you from the total break down
The only chance to see and rebuild your own life

Resemblence of No Life

If I were any of you
I'd turn away into in self pity
Consumed by disgrace lapsing into hate
Dye my nails and paint my face
Deny any spoken truth no need for you to change or repent
I see the scars that tell the stories of your lifeline

If I were just you
I'd tear my face in self blame
Ashamed by mocking words in a simple rhyme
That a crucified one who was hunted down
Who took your life's final blow on Her brow
Will simply cleanse your whole past away

If you believe this you should tremble
Your reality of such a Christ isn't real
At your ending moments only an evil smile will greet you
Only if you accept the complex constallations of inner self
Could you breathe against the lies that you were in the past
Stand aflame breast to breast your charred wings decaying
Only moments to remind you that you are your only hope
Before your time reaches its everlasting end

If I had joy I would relapse
Into a past not delt with
A self unkown simmering with hate
And the depths of ignorance remembered
I'd tear my life forever apart

If you remember
Cover your eyes and sleep
There is no hope should you wake
You are unclean in consciousness
No depth perception of wisdom
Your own defiled heart on week nights
Sets the constellations of comfort conformity
Which in the end will condemn you

Purify me with endless thoughts
Remind me of a crucified life in a perilous time
I want to sink into a resemblence of that life
Let no foolish worldly hopes remain