A Gray Silence

In the gray silence
I ponder many Psalms
Beside my sleeping child
Only this comes into my mind
That society is a greed disease

It's mid day
But oddly still gray out
An everlasting twilight
From morning till dusk falls

Oh sweet child
Held in the obsidian
Arms full but barren of smile
Attempt to imagine
Living on just for a while

Fuck, it's midnight
But oddly still gray out
An everlasting twilight
From morning till dusk falls

Now I pray to the darkness
Just to be reminded of blue skies
Lies Of a purchased companion
Stolen from my arms
During the gray twilight

In the gray silence
I ponder many Psalms
Beside a sleeping child
Who I rescue daily but isn't even mine
All I can comes into my mind
Is that society was a disease
The tension of it now gone

Redemption Fantasy

Behold the image behind closed doors
In this world alone you speak your mind
It invades the truth of your waking eyes
A lie decaying your unstable ground

Believe it's true
That it can set you free
Believe in the mind's eye fantasy
It can be anything but redemption
Are you afraid to live...

Fear never leaves always present
Even in the simple dreams where you hide
Evade dodge resist parry or deny reality
Will you stand when the time comes
Not for pride but simply to survive

Believe it's true
That it can set you free
Believe in the mind's eye fantasy
It can be anything but redemption
Are you afraid to live...

Betwixt the nether of a lie ridden reality
Redemption of self isn't the greatest truth
It is the concept of speaking amidst the torment
Even quite simple words for which you never apologize

Even believing it's only half true
That the softly whispered sacrifice can rescue
Not the self but so that it all may continue
Believe in the mind's eye dream
As the fiction dismantles reality
As you fall from your once stable ground
Redemption of life given for a struggle
Were you afraid to live...

I'm so fucking proud
As we look back now
At the day you broke free
Woke from your distant nightmare
To grasp as the waking dream
Just beyond the fear
Of which you used to hide
Welcome to a brighter future
Because of those who chose
To step forward and die

Believe it's true
That it can set you free
Believe in the mind's eye fantasy
It can be anything but redemption
Are you afraid to live...

The Why to Come

What am I still breathing for
You wait for the traitor's door
He comes knocking
But I tell him to just go away

Why won't you come
Tell us why
Why won't you come
Just come, just come

Opened my defenceless door
Can't deal with the waiting anymore
He came knocking and I answered
I died defending my home
My mind were all my secrets hide
Remain safely intact as I die

Why do children still cry
Tell me why won't you come
Starvation and plague ruins life
Yet you don't come
Untamed and idle you watch
Why won't you come
Just come,

I held the cradle
Of the last womb born child
Is this moment what I was breathing for
Death came knocking at my door
I screamed as I greeted his wide grin
Secrets all lay bare I beckoned him come in
I was ready to die standing
In a pool of tears

Why won't you come
We can't suffer to wait anymore
I the whore of my secret mind
Laboring to escape day and night
Crafted a world in which to hide
A dream written not drugs or some tragic lie
Tonight you come or I die
So just come

Why won't you come
Tell us why
Why won't you come
Just come, just come