Monday, December 21, 2009

Chime

I'd rather worship the death tree
Where the mournful snuffed out his own life
Back to the earth his actions cursed
But in the same moment condemned to set it free

I'd rather be faithless
Than chime your evil song
Rhymes of old muttered ever on
New age rhythms crafted

I'd rather countdown the moments
To my own condemned destruction
Than justify my worship of mental images
Of a white palm bleeder past down to me

I'd rather be faithless
Than chime your evil song
Rhymes of old muttered ever on
New age rhythms crafted

Saturday, December 19, 2009

Poisonous Eternal Flame

Lay your lie down
To the wrong eternal flame
As the evil pursued you
You never turned around
Faced the past you forever regret

Live in the vengeful toxins
Of a poisonous eternal flame
The lie of comfort in a Christian destiny
Satan persuaded us with no lies
We bought paid to debt forward
A lie of an ever listening ear and our enjoyable answer

How ill we received the news
That The True Eternal was calling back our debt
An earth filled with war erupting into a millennium of flames
Spat us out as we chased our shadows underground

The ever listening ear heard the cry of those we chose to neglect
Blessed are the forgotten children of parents who lay dead
Under a lamp post the lion planted a light against misery
We tore it down to build a mansion for a church
And then forgot to fly into the streets do die
For the people we deny their lives are a fight

So lay your head down in bed
Wrapped in the poisonous eternal flame
Lie forever awake awaiting a rapture
That will bring you a new body
But leave you with a tormented mind
A soul you forgot to feed by fighting
Gave in to a dream of another couch of comfort
In a mansion in heaven instead of a house of debt

Lay your lie down
To the wrong eternal flame
As the evil pursued you
You never turned around
Faced the past you forever regret

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Blessed beta .9

Blessed are the napalm phantoms
For their skin is already burned from hell
Blessed are the forcibly violated
For their soul's inherit the world's misery

Saturday, December 12, 2009

I Alone

Here I am alone again
Another birthday passes for the damned
Evil implied for a divorced man
No one pretends I'm not condemned

Here I am alone again
Another birthday soloing raids goes by
A single man deceived into marriage condemned am I
Sadly they accept her because I'm a fucking 'man'
No matter the story unacceptance is their plan
Judgements upon my nerve racking existence

For her story I was brought down
Now I live for the moment
The intensity and the thrill
On the only I will ever know

A promise that I'll be accepted
When I tell everyone my story's side
A tale I won't concede to spill
The difference between love and acceptance
Now at 28 years old I can tell

An apocalypse upon myself
Choices I made created the strife
Unacceptance in a bitter look is my friend
My forehead bears the ill mark of lightning
In the eyes of those who hear my past

Why have any dealings with such men
Wide is the gap of unacceptance that spills from their mouth
Bias based prejudice formulated fast and furiously
Merely to place a moniker for gossip upon the already ripped apart

Chivalry is dead because so is respect
A woman gives sex but has no concept of being a friend
Family's continued relationship with her enables the sickness
Now I reside with darkness she is my only f(r)iend

I dream of a future
Where someone will truly accept a presence like mine
From the delusion of such a future my courageous insanity follows
I dwell in the twilight from the church's gossip not judgement do I hide
My story is for myself to hide but acceptance is yours to show

Virgin in the Whore

You there the virgin and the whore
Unpunctured blood intact from weak impact
Whore yourself daily in a symbiotic imaginary mind
Children aborted after delusional conception

The high you seek is nothing new
The dosage enters your sacred vein
A complex administrative tool twists and turns
Forcing its way past the outside skin

The whoring machine I see
Such a devastating sin
To waste away into oblivion
Just to die in a virgin dream your not living in

Father chased the chain of chastity
Tortured with hymns and his hidden key
A first lover with a passion to break you
His touch haunts like a presence
Lingers between your thighs like a memory

The whoring machine I see before me
Such a manifestation of corruption and destruction
To waste so many lives away into oblivion
Just to die a drug overdose during the daily beating
A child left behind in a virgin dream you never lived in

Mother under husband's shadow praying for you
A veil of abomination images torture her waking eyes
Resenting herself for conceding so easily unto him
She bends over repulsed skirt up for father's will
One verse used against her voice every time

I sit in the twilight and wonder why
The virgin inside the whore at the same time
My stomach turns as the nightly news stirs my imagination
How they all must suffer to get a moments rest
So I lift my voice to grab ink, paper and pen

The whoring machine perpetuated by our society
Crime the manifestation of corruption and desire
So many lives wasting away no memories left behind
Just to die a whore existing in dreams her virgin life


Oblivion swallows them every time
Drug overdose or a severe beating
An illegal home abortion clinic infection
Or suicide in a cell as they come out of it
Realizing the shit they can't live through

Embryo

The day you never planned long vanished
Whisper its memories like a mere dream
In sleep alone my unborn soul bothers
Drenched in a swirling ocean of fear

We the embryo of sleeping sick
See without mechanical genetics
Corrections only exist in the living
I wither without a whisper
As the toxic potion of freedom seals my fate

Flush my tiny soul into oblivion
A sewer pipe of wavy water accepts openly
As if I was swimming, born, perfect and fair
The last fading light blacks with the lids closure

We the embryo of sleeping sick
See without mechanical genetics
Corrections only exist in the living
I wither without a whisper
As the toxic potion of freedom seals my fate

You wake with or without regret
The saline injected to close my eyelids
Swollen forever unlike your lips
Never buried only embraced by the waters

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

OverVoid (Hide All Guilt)

Hidden in between the lines
The comfortable cracks of life
A wounded child avoids the world
An outcast in her father's eyes
Raped then blamed
A new degree of
Hate & Shame

Behind the scenes
Behind the mo(u)rning sun
Hidden from our view
An exile stolen
By shadow

In light of new attention
The pariah isn't us, it's you
Staring at your own gravestone
Died a lonely life despised by love
All for greed killed off morality
Society neglects the light
Who needs virtue...

Beyond fixed multipliers
The exiles slunk up to the sun
No longer hidden, their shame undone
The pariah stand unified as one
Outcasts to the mundane
A world gone mad
With greedy lust

From inside society we take up space
We absorb and waste... time
One by one we fall off the map labelled emo(tional)
A disclaimer note of a dead end suicide

In light of new attention
The pariah isn't us, it's you
Staring at your own gravestone
Died a lonely life despised by love
All for greed killed off morality
Society neglects the light
Who needs virtue...
Any ways

Surely not a society of rape
Victim blaming is bereft of guilt
Weekend living intellectuals & athletes
Piss away the youth of others
Disregard for human life
No condition worse
Than lethargy
Of the heart

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Ode to the Skies

Woe to darkness
The womb where I rest
An omen or an ode to black skies
Tortured by winds of plague and death

Overhead while skies are blazen
December's chill is vanquished
As another dies trapped in enslavement
A purchased life daily poisoned

Parents let alone in semi peaceful slumber
Treating strangers in daylight with ignorant respect
The evil we know of them brings fear every night

Blazen skies tormented with hurricane winds
Breaths life as a virus into open wounds
And another child's blue skies darken

A plague of mental trauma keeps them wide awake
The mellow sound on rooftop of the poison rain
Corruption lies in the home just as it does in globalization
We've forgotten why we slave each day
For a future not for a debt to pay or comfort in deceptive pleasures

So you would slave for your own child's daily future
But would you fight for a cure
To remove the cancer that kills them slowly
Would you die to have it distributed equality
Would you kill to save their life
another child's blue skies darken

Why not give up a comfortable life
Stop hiding your conscious morality
Behind vast amounts of escape acts such as TV
another child's blue skies darken

Look back at your own legacy
Did you enjoy your own life
What about the children you leave behind
another child's blue skies darken

We the Walking Dead

We the walking dead
Don't need acceptance to exist
Only need permission to be ignored
The caring amongst us breaths death
As expired portions we donate to tragedys
We take home meager wages
Compared to the corporate execs
If we didn't learn to try we'd die
Gave up our dreams as the 2nd greatest cost
As we get back up daily for more

As children we gave up our dreams
Belittled by everyone for wanting more
A desire to live in caring
Is a life that seemed to fall apart
Away oh dreams be gone

We the walking dead
Don't need permission to exist
We wouldn't make it through a day
If we didn't learn to try
Gave up our dreams
As we get back up daily for more

Away oh dreams be gone
I'm done living as a witch
For believing simply in morality
Or a crown of caring upon our creation
Away oh dreams be gone
Away into clouds of decay
Away so debt accumulated we can repay
Away so dreamless sleep can retake me
Away into the oblivion of an uncaring crowd
Never come back
We don't want to get back up again

We the waking from death
Are on a mission to march
Breath the dream of caring
Embrace the corpse and join the ride

We the waking from death
Are on a mission of compliance
To breath the dream of caring
A legal code of conduct
Written on our hearts

Hell's Human Hunter

Spawned as an image before the beginning of time
Born of no womb but an incantation or spell
A bastard without a bitch with blackened wings
Rebeled with an my angels in the darkest of night

Hatred instilled upon men's hearts when I breath
I march my minions to claim men's names for hell
Upon arrival they march around my throne of fire
Plead as you might your God gave you to me

Remember the Devil
His heart is a soul hunter
For a thousand hidden years
Shall be his human race revenge

I embrace the hallowed names of my son's
Of thieves, drug dealers and killers
Of corporate indwellers and ignorant complacent ones
They will follow blindly on the night of my revenge

Remember the Devil
His heart is a soul hunter
For a thousand hidden years
Shall be his human race revenge

Men dream of my scattered ashes
In an eternal incineration fire of sulfer
But for a thousand years of man's eternity
I will upon you all have my revenge

Dear Sarah

I am creation's cursed seed
Love and evil's hybrid son
A bastard labeled by churches
And the eternal judgement of family's fire
Divorced I fell apart with no alibi

Dear Sarah
I have no warning signs
I fade faster than twilight
24 hours until I'm overcome
Until I'm breached
Until my mind sheds the flesh
Until the heart's fire ends
Dear Sarah

All ties to morality like family
Wained devoured without their remorse
I was merely on my own path
A quest for the eternal dream
It all started with the seeking of fire
A light to guide us
In our darkest of hours

Dear Sarah
I have no warning signs
I fade faster than twilight
24 hours until I'm overcome
Until I'm breached
Until my mind sheds the flesh
Until the heart's fire ends
Dear Sarah

Abandoned I searched the floor
The consequences of a life apart
Alone and whats more
I'm told its all my fault
So I never climb back up again
Six feet under I sit as they fill it in
Me pondering the moments I have left