Tuesday, September 30, 2008


I wish my brother had died
So I could know the feelings of pain
To help me identify to aid you all
I wish my grandfather hadn't of past away
I hate the feelings of desiring such pains
It brings my whole being into a realm of shame
For speaking such a wish for my own unselfish name

Fuck your mass consumption
As you run into a delusion of less pain
Instead let the lyrics of music help you sway
Become alive feel the air your breathing
Savor the tears you should be crying
We all want to see the real unbridled you

Now I sit in sleepless night
While tears scream down from my eyes
No one to catch me when I'm on the verge
Ready to burst forth into a true adventure and die
There is no acceptance on earth only death
For those who exist to dream like we do

Fuck the cob-webs of spider like silence
Dancing with fancy riddles of pleasure
I'm sorry to say its just regret of zombies
Speaking fairy tales of dies into your head
Blood stained roses are a pungent sign
That your frustrated life long ago should have past on

Run into addictions to feel a secure acceptance
The delusional image escapes your breath with that hug
Into a world of pain will your mind be swept away
The lyrics of all time allow your soul to sway within
Awake to feel alive grasp the meaning of air in your lungs
Savor the tears your eyes should be crying
We all want to see ourselves fly with infinite wings

But I want to blow that image away
Screaming unending meaningless lyrics
As I run down the infinite hallways of life
Spare me from a vast wasted lifetime
Walk up behind me and blow away my mind

Fuck the vacant daydreams that keep you actionless
Dance like conformists on a vacant social stage
No artistic freedom and the higher ups deny you fair wage
Jump when the high rollers wants to see something
Stand aside and abide your never to come time
Because you lack the will to take any sort of action

Fear Me Pageant Beauty

Premade personality templates
Storm the stage in bikinis as they waves
The ignorant father claps with pride
As his pageant beauty passes by

So the world shall fear me
Light funeral pyres in my heart
They hate the uniqueness of my flesh
Breeding the silence in my mind

Wish I could be there or watch it on TV
But the viewing could kill me
The mundane repetition of answers
Breathed forth from ugly mental silence
They are all the same but don't support equality
All princesses bread for crowning
Or the depression of loss
In believing the ignorant words
Of their supporters treachery

In the baby Jesus there is no tomorrow
You can breath grand mistakes
But not like death we gave the Christ
We broke and raped the flesh
Of a normal man's prophetic life
In a baby still called Jesus
There is no tomorrow

The world should fear me
The darkness of silence in my mind
The funeral pyre for their comfort in my heart
The eruption of my patience kills
Your premade template personality
To break the violence of your doubt

The world shall fear the ignorance in conformity
The vote is out from the grand jury in your minds
The expanse of your intolerance spoken from your eyes
The breaking point of violence from your hearts
You should fear a love you cannot image
The charity of truth in absolute equality

In the baby Jesus there is no tomorrow
Once was spoken to have risen
But by men of weakness it was written
The pain of angels is the darkness of night
The day is a demonic flame of their play time
The moon is the tears of devils that filled a circular vile
The sun an ancient angelic token of forever undying light
In a baby Jesus there is no hope for tomorrow

Only in the living today
Can equal future have a tomorrow
Only in the chosen uniform unconformity moment
Will we find truth for our final hours
Only in the truth of that life will we find truth denied
Our wills broken down by science
Or a subliminal question unanswered
Our souls filled with hope of equality conformity
In a baby Jesus there is no tomorrow
Only in the unanswered questions of this life
Will we find absolute forever in tomorrow

Sunday, September 28, 2008


Rip out my vocal chords
I want rhythm in all life's accords
Written for equality destined
For a future unselfish community

Fuck finding the way into my heart
You can't afford to find my reasons
I'm too focused to breath like you do
So fear on, and fuck that research into my heart

Don't stand beside me until your will is tall
I'd rather walk blind than live with your life's purpose
I need to see the driest desert
To exist in deepest winter
So my heart might be clear
To stand with my mind and not fall

I hate my life is a reality you never knew
There is nothing I won't give up
To exist now opposite as you do
I'll ram out of all houses' walls
To run into the coldest winter
Against your fools pride embed in evil
Desires of a selfish mind
There is no will set against you
Only a comfort box encircles your heart
Show me the door I'll grasp the tides of winter
Upon the swells of open ocean so peaceful
In the end my vanquished self in harmony
Can stand against you all
This is my purpose to fight the lack of purpose
Inside the fucking empty shell you call a life

Fuck finding the way into my heart
You can't afford to find my reasons
I'm too focused to breath like you do
So fear on, and fuck that research into my heart

In disbelieve I watch as you follow blind
Equal to your own self provoked opinions
I have no time for your back water country rhymes
Into equality I spread my wings to fly

Elven light

Angelic light like elven light
Fearful we are of the coming dawn
There isn't any peace in our souls tonight

The ancient tick of our new age clock
Turn the tables back remember the inside place
Its now conquered by our sense of comfort space
But if I must I'll deconstruct until your evil will is gone

Believe me lets be real locked in this truthful moment
Only right there is no plea to withstand the will of night
The darkness enveloping your sickened soul

Its not alright... alright
we're not alright.... alright
You are all the vast servants of sin
Unable to stand against your own comfortable self contained boxes
I awake and rise to meet my ending moments
Even as might knees might quake
I won't back down tonight
Its that time for me, the elven angelic light awaits

Angelic light like elven light
Fearful we are of the coming dawn
There isn't any peace in our souls tonight

I await the dawn
The impending doom of us all
You can step back into dust return
Soon we'll all be like you
Its just the manner in which we choose
We'll enter elven angelic eternity
At the dawning of the Son's light

The whitest light will never oblige your comfort soul
Evil will against equality within you exists too fluently this night
Embrace the elven light or be devoured by satan's grace tonight
His harmony is your structure of self tortured imminent intensity
I awake step back against the rise of selfish will in the self called my

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Generate the Lying Structure Inside

Harmony from no structure comes
Peace destruction has the system done
There is no time like the moments of now to awake

Then maybe the fear will evaporate
Leaving your veins time to regenerate
All the secrets once hidden deep within
I learned true love and now I know absolute hate
Is it funny I should say anger advanced my soul

Equality spat back in my face
There isn't enough truth bound in hate
For this generation to find true love
Only a fancy heroic fairy tale have their dreams become
So willing to bind themselves in shame
Scribing poisons in words the meaning they'll never know

All hope for innocent was lost in pacifism
The true war is against your own inner rage
The cage of ignorance you adore in your own soul
Your heart is vast but too dark to care
You've got your simple homely dreams
So should I just let you seek them and let you go

I'll save you the breathing words
A white dove has more natural love than you
But because of you I'm bound to stand at the well of hate
When I needed you most you spat words of hope back into my face
Your spirit fucked another man's shameless soul I know
Don't hold your chin up acknowledge now the peace in your disgrace
You were never very clear fucked my mind on this abandonment ride

Now I know my home is gone they took your side so long ago
Bullshit they believe your half truths but call me king of shame and lies
When it comes to speaking sweat looking angelic ones like you control
I'll carry the shame for both of us if you'll let me know one thing

If you could leave me now in the dust amongst your ever changing dreams
Would you abandon me again, leaving me for the camouflage of another's arms
To hide your own inner rage someday you'll deliver the truth and bind your soul's fate
Someday, but I hope I never come to know.
If you could change, again I say don't let me know

The question is: if now should your lies stay here or in clear truth vacate away?
Don't you realize your not really even my friend
All the evil believers call me the great sin
While you hide yours away to allow the fucking vanquishing of my very will

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Sickened by Symptoms

Exist in a world crippled by toys
Red X isn't offline, its the mode of anger
Self created you can't any longer deny
Fingers hesitate to type www to view images of ill content
Or feed the sociality like crack addiction online

While you sleep cleanse yourself
The medicated high from your veins
The drool from your mouth
The sleep from your eyes
As the howitzers blast to deconstruct your mind
Preparing all you are for the incoming onslaught
The demon will stop time for you no more hands turning
He focuses words to keep you from the total break down
The only chance to see and rebuild your own life

Sickened by symptoms of mental torment
Suffering in desires for water we pipe dream away
Saddened by jesters dancing in clean air in my head
Struck from post melodic civilization's equality hate

Crops harvested for waste cry out in shame
The past is a resolution to forget for a civilized world
Lets drink our minds into dependance on the machine
For our comfort and high overdose pastures are green
No clean water left to cleanse our pasts away

Hope from a few can't save those who remain unaware
The conscious blind the God She can't make whole again
Rip out your insides to find mechanical parts
Soon you'll be after youself no concept left of compasion
This time you'll wipe yourself from the face of the earth

Sickened by symptoms of mental torment
Suffering in desires for water we pipe dream away
Saddened by jesters dancing in clean air in my head
Struck from post melodic civilization's equality hate

While you sleep cleanse yourself
The medicated high from your veins
The drool from your mouth
The sleep from your eyes
As the howitzers blast to deconstruct your mind
Preparing all you are for the incoming onslaught
The demon will stop time for you no more hands turning
He focuses words to keep you from the total break down
The only chance to see and rebuild your own life

Resemblence of No Life

If I were any of you
I'd turn away into in self pity
Consumed by disgrace lapsing into hate
Dye my nails and paint my face
Deny any spoken truth no need for you to change or repent
I see the scars that tell the stories of your lifeline

If I were just you
I'd tear my face in self blame
Ashamed by mocking words in a simple rhyme
That a crucified one who was hunted down
Who took your life's final blow on Her brow
Will simply cleanse your whole past away

If you believe this you should tremble
Your reality of such a Christ isn't real
At your ending moments only an evil smile will greet you
Only if you accept the complex constallations of inner self
Could you breathe against the lies that you were in the past
Stand aflame breast to breast your charred wings decaying
Only moments to remind you that you are your only hope
Before your time reaches its everlasting end

If I had joy I would relapse
Into a past not delt with
A self unkown simmering with hate
And the depths of ignorance remembered
I'd tear my life forever apart

If you remember
Cover your eyes and sleep
There is no hope should you wake
You are unclean in consciousness
No depth perception of wisdom
Your own defiled heart on week nights
Sets the constellations of comfort conformity
Which in the end will condemn you

Purify me with endless thoughts
Remind me of a crucified life in a perilous time
I want to sink into a resemblence of that life
Let no foolish worldly hopes remain

How Should We Deny

A vicious display of truth in hate filled insight
Seering pupils out from our mental death dawn awakeing
Screaming violent sirens that shake dust from a sleepy sun
A new unvigilant egoistic gaurd at the well of hate
Vapors of your legends end as soul's mights degenerates

Degrading gravity from equality neglect deadens our eye sight
Tainted versions of wisdom guided by genocide formulas
Chess court games our morality on society's evolutionary trial
Explain away virtues as mere chemical scientific reaction
A judge must decide how we deal with dark streets
With new anti-Darwin laws based on unproven genetic heresy

How should we deny
The evil voice holding the reigns
There is no reply
The only choice is forfeit to a comfortable lie
Or dismantle your own life
To reconstruct with the chance you might die

Against evil men whose synapses are brokenly firing
We can't call molesters wrong if all our reason is fiction
A chemical theory based on conformity to evolutionary reality
You see now how our minds broke away from various moral texts Some call scriptures labeled 'over quoted ancient verbatum'
Wave goodbye to an unraveling community who judge eachother
By unproven scientific theories causing unabsolute distortions

Truths prophesied betrayed but beyond our greatest measure
By pulpits bearing profit seeking puppets called peachers
Auditoriums labeled by vacant soul seeking leadership
They suggest it be called a reverand holy place
With speechless applause the congragation approves
And some in an evil unknown (angelic) tongue
A soft sinister voice soothing unmedicated open wounds
With precise words and intoxicating undertones
Seeking your soul with no protection it penetrates

How should we deny
The evil voice holding the reigns
There is no reply
The only choice is forfeit to a comfortable lie
Or dismantle your own life
To reconstruct with the chance you might die

Machines that manufacture cannot rebuild your humanity
Gladly they tie your self medicated mind over
Pictures of altered beauty and false harmony evil melody
A dangerous path your feet won't dare to tred
This choice isn't chance or on random virtue on display
It is all morals bound in chivalry delivered into courage
The first simple act chosen and followed into forever
Or the decaying mental picture of your self image
And Nothing more shall you become

I am the anti-way energy running against the traffic
On a mobile uninteractive carefree highway
A truth creeping in while your ignorance stepped out
I am one and all, wrapped inside the tears of heaven
Streaming like stardust into atmosphere unseen
Like the vivid image of your life how it is
The vast expanse of your past is a wreck
Life doesn't deserve you

How should we deny
The evil voice holding our minds
There is no easy reply
The only choice is forfeit to conformity
Or dismantle your whole life
To reconstruct even if you die

Set your feet on concrete made of equality stones
Pavement with morality to deny yourself hells eternity
Or else await in conformity sinking without a trace
Your life in breathless comfortability will leave no signs
Remember these words when your time is ending
The less material you live for the less you will suffer
I offer the blue pill of truth or red of endless mental comatose
Now close your eyes meditate or sleep
In the morning you shall remember nothing
Or awake with breathless hope a new life to undertake

A Legend Truly Deserves You

Cause unseen no hands can carry your soul
No redemption until you pawn it all
Look what the darkness inticed reduced you to
Lets tear it up and seek your rescue
Otherwise nothing will truly deserve you

Dozens of broken trust relationships
But none saw your inner hurting and diseray
Only your outer lonely beuaty
No inner truth in knowing you sought
Did any of them hear a word you said

During those lonely nights
I know inside you were modified
No spoken insight of your inner beauty or self worth
Destined to whore your soul like a prostitute
No sweet release into true loving oblivion
Until you forget acceptance and live for youself

Lets tear up your game plan and redeem your mind
We both know theres a moral wonderous man
Not a rude self pleasure feeding fucking boy
Out there that truly deserves to love you
Remember me and these words when you need them
When you desire to walk the paths of hardship and peace
Seeking your personal legend in a conscious plan

The Shooting Time

Lost all control again
Intoxicating pleasures disgrace
My honourable examples of life
Staying longer won't avail me
I fell from whatever grace taught is
Its my providence now I'm designed to end
Today's breath my minds final terbulant act

I'd rather just fall down into my grave
Inspite of hallow loving words
Let me self destruct this is the way I go
Its up to me to find my own redemption
But my solution wrought a dead end
Along with your answers betrayed

Its time to go
Lost control once again
Today is my epidemic revolution
The hour I beseech the god's
For hosts and armies
That enable by gunshot my death
No seiece fire button to end

I'm so tired of anger
No more striving to live again
Let me give in
To my final temptation
I'd rather it be my death
Than not trust anyone once again

Where are the armies
I await the shooting
The vast bullets that shall never end
No more operations I shan't live on
No never again
This is it my friend
Let me go

I desire the piano's voice
In my last smoke filled
Self dictated moments

Monday, September 22, 2008

I want you to fear me
The screaming violins in my hating voice
The darkness of my traumatizing mind
My touch of weakness disturbs your high
The eagerness dwelt in pacifist built western peaceful times
There is only worries of genocidic undamesticated mankind
Filling the meter of violence in my heart
Just like unspoken fear of darkness outside your door

I desire freedom
So the world doesn't appeal to me
Where is the silence for harmony in my mind
There is only the darkness of my ward
No feelings defeat as I sit wrapped in my vest
My chest beats within always breathing
For a dream of absolution in equal justice that will never shine
Even so I'm disconnected too attached to 3rd world loss of life
No rest unless I grasp your illusion of skin deep peace
While getting high on something tonight

So I don't grasp your illusion
No moderation of absolutes shall confirm the lies
Only the grand illusion that father time will save you
At the end when your existance is proven tanned skin shallow
Will you find the uselessness of your time in this place

I'd rather be a killer of life
Than preach your false testimony
Or uphold your beauty as blessings for our outsides
The future crawls away as you seek shelter
From the outcome of your own surface level choices
No you can't turn double turn again and walk away
Welcome to consequences of the security of who you are
Of a faithless lack luster energy liberation into hell
No god's will save the illusion you never knew you were

Identified by frequent mental theft
Endless rows of tatoos, implants, uniforms and tanned skin
People of conformity cluster fuck my eyes
Into a dreamstate of silent darkness and soul suffering
A vigilant dictatorship of equality disturbs
The temple of the we I call us in my mind

Only darkness for we, us, and I
As I pray for nothing but equality in this life
God is forever but children are dying around us and we
While I in we sit back in an arm chair
And get high to forget their plight tonight

Beauty in the Mourning Reflections

Sell yourself to the ghost in the dark
He'll take your deepest desires way too far
Enter into a shadow reality to feel a minute glimpse of free
To triumph against your crippling half medicated joys
To revel in your own self proclaimed falsified legend
In the providence of timely fashion never fixed pain

There is beauty in the mourning for the way we live
Lament for the mass scars from our overdose infected wounds
They torment our souls as we leave them for our kids

I am the unworldy way out from which glass reflections preach
Death and decay so near at hand deny the grand comfort illusion
I'll swallow your child-like self molesting heart tonight
Concieve a murderous intent against truth until it goes away
Then all we desire in your minds will unhindered be seen
Yet from the lack of absolute equality we shall never be free

Lament for our ruined age of chivalry
Overwhelmed amidst our self denied hypocracy
Lets coin lying phrases to toss all honor aside
To throw our demonic star dust instensly at the sun
Into eyes of the god's who dictate our future already over
No need for morality we stand on the brink of it all
Sceintific purity is our next generation mental sanctity

There is beauty in the mourning for the way we live
Lament for the mass scars from our overdose fun infected wounds
They torment our souls as we pass them on cursing our kids

There is no use we are already over
We are here again already broken as men
Scattered peices of who we were meant to be
We lost our code, all morality along our new comfortable ways
We fight against everything we once concieved to be pure
In the namesake of a fantastic saving thing might make us whole

We are undone ten thousand unholy self satisfied peices
No one can make sense of who you are amongst your own damage
Only your own face reflected will you recieve grace unseen
Everything you thought is nothing until your cleansed
On your way to whole through realms of things that make you high
How I discuss with the sky the moonlight tears in nature's eyes
No beauty in the cannibals we are eating away at our own souls

There is beauty in the mourning for the way we live
Lament for the mass scars from our overdose fun infected wounds
They torment our souls as we pass them on cursing our kids
In the created there are four ways to reflect us into self awake
Without absolutes in morality none of them aid our hearts
To regenerate

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Well of Hate

Welcome to earth
The system center of our atom build universe
I conclude we exist in a matrix type hell
Too near the structure we built
Known as the well of hate
Intertwined in lust our culture lay
Embracing chaos in fugitive disarray
Hypocrisy devil designed democracy
Created to aid in obtaining your soul
A post melodic system of turmoil
Where no inner peace or harmony can dwell

Melt my spirit into the metalic black urn
Of our culture created god's sulfuric hell
I desire to hug the Cerberus
While he eats away my soul
So continue to pray to your grand societal delusion
A boxed up god not in nature but on TV
Isolated self against the truth in searching
Indulging in the revolution of the anti calm

A new world post marxist but bound in communism
Hidden in our democracy exists today
To see you must seek the anti social
A mental pre-image deconstruction solution
No unique qualities only masses conforming
To meet the social vibes next impending trend
Hear the harmony of the soul's unanswered melody

You know well all meet the same end
No amounts of money will buy you out
But the more you own will help you enter in
First in line at the gates of hell
An eternal chasm beside the well we built
The well of anti-equality the masses breath as hate

The apex of the final absolution
You are a walking TV commercial slave
Your glass world tinted yours shades
So you could more easily misdirect the blame
Now you throw hateful words at the gods
In your darkest and most unblessed days
Whoring stories of poverty slave labour
You can't deny you benefit from exists today
I fuck my fingers into the deepest depths
The black orbs of my unherioc eyes
So God, she can burn away the unrest
In the self adorned turbulant core of life
No hero will die for a gluttonous world
That so greedily feeds while children die
We torment them indirectly for our labels
Or possesions we claim to need
While they trapped in cages bleed

When left alone with in humble silence
With the most ancient of unanswered questions
The daily clamor becomes merely an agent
Against virtue that is the still and quiet
It will only help you to forget
No granduer in an question never asked
There is no answer I could give
To envoke your consciousness to truly live

Accept the natural selection chaotic theory
Random luck they say is how you came to exist
It gives you mental ease and comfort
As you gladly endorse 3rd world slave labor
Conform to the vacant mannequin masses
Fuck the fragile glass equality delusion
Forgot you ever wanted a relative answer
Turn aside to embrace the comfort
Of socially acceptable labels of over sold matter
Watch the true freedom parade pass by
From your monitor or TV screen
Or from behind the encasing windows
Of the shops the bind you so deep
To a demon-cracy adopted for pleasures
Seen by 3rd world anti-west as the well of hate

All dreams now exist in a terrible world
So romantically full of energentic rage
Injustice wrapped in the rape of equality
Especially by our own self indulgent kind
We comb our hair and share the same TV embed tastes
Polish your dress to fit our mental vision

I Stand on quaking knees
Beseeching the unholy reason
Why I should waste my life away
For you the self serving communal slaves
Degenerate my soul with unpenatrable perseverance
Set in rage against your anti virtue society
Bound in chains to the well we all helped build
A well at the chasm of hell
The well of hate

Point me to professional help
A perscribed psycho-anti-christ-rapist
Equate the quality of medicated labeled help
To the amount they require you to pay
A system built to create troubles and hate

Deliver me from a societal suicide fate
I'd rather be banished into the well of hate
To read its letters to gods
From the children we raped not so long ago
By a worldwide lust for comfort
For their oil without a dime spent
We burned down bridges while selling our souls
No freely given assistance
Only consequences suggested we deny
A C.I.A cover less likely to make TV
From it's blasts we don't need shelter

Uniform conformity set to break your will
Against its stones built into the well of hate
When you can think for yourself let me know
As I prepare to dodge another harmful taste
A hell bent force fed heretic damnation pill
Administered by pastors in auditoriums
With religion for TV put up on show
Swallowed by so many sleeping souls
As the rhythmic chants make me ill
Down the throat by those labeled society's saints
Can you declare thoughts of your own
Even if thats so I won't care
Maybe best to say it again
Don't even begin to let this dead heart know

Another dry throat foaming in the mouth
Beside the vastness of the well of hate
Watched its own life as it avoided action
Into self deterioration it eagerly climbed
It hoped to find peace after it vented
But the inner anger welcome the breath of life
No peace found in the verbal vent
Only selfish rhymes of comfort and rage
Self avoidance is key when living in a world
So ready to disbelieve in self virtue or restraint
But pools its prayers in a vision
Of some miracleous impending change
Vanquishing the unanswered questions within

I have no such hope
I want them to pillage my face
With unadulterated version of hate
The unholy justified rope around my neck
I see my future death all to clear
At the hands of those destined for a mental hell
I am the man utterly dedicated
To a deconstructive regeneration end
At the cost of my tragic self
An all abandoning prolific uneducated profile

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

You... Or I?

And then you slid over here
Weakened breath from your last attempt
Offering words of consolation behind an evil smile
My dying heart gave no defense against you

Now it can't be washed away
I surrendered to ill in self betraying pains
All comes down to what you believe I've done
Just let me sink into the depths without a trace
Ocean waters can't wash away my defiled heart

And then you left my soul in fear
Breathless charred lungs from your evil touch
Distraught I didn't escape in time
Now blackened images defile my mind