Will I ever,

 Wake from...

This abominable,

Unfathomable curse,

For which I am eternally,

Holocaust of hope within,

Ever lost and withering,

Entombed inside,

The forever; is,

Helios...!

Play,

A piano,

Remember,

The sadness,

Prod all sorrow,

Rebirth joy,

From dark,

Will you?

Will...

I...?

She...

    Held my un-wished breath to find, Diamond in rough paranoid gravity waters she ruins doubt, Hopeful infinitely perplexed tide against the loneliness anomaly, Burying my unaccomplished forever behind the vacant shell that was me... Drowning am I no longer, In the eternal see of my familiar imbued shame!

In lieu of,

Finding...

No:

Found!

Is she..!

She.... Is,

     Hopeful in the remainder of our story yet to be told, As I rummage through quiet dismay, Her dreams are eternal and I'm unquenchable aging damned and yet to my dismay undying, Grace is forever and yet heaven isn't lovely or holy, It's a spire of elite and unto the rest; Denying...

In lieu of our participation in,

The ever present watching,

Of each other's course!

Ever scene,

    A piano played invisibly; Discounted inaudible ever swaying pendulum swings, Saying the very most ever... Important things.

In lieu of,
Hearing,
Seeing,
Doing!

Have you scene,

      An unspoken epitaph of a long benign forgotten eulogy, The unadulterated moment hope was cremated during finality's pendulum unanxious swing, Unimpeded by the G-d monster a protoplasm gave up the ghost...

In lieu of... Ever,
Witnessing;
Sadly!

There is,

    Always... Judgement, Inter-External verbalized harbinger impending apocalypse, Self-hated-worth is meaningless in the Holocaust mirror face; Standing every... Granted by everyone-for us, No permissions asked, We're a glass dying cannon, Firing bullet-culprits that ever allude to a forecast eternally toxic... For those who proclaim these poems toxic...

In lieu of,
Said toxicity...!?!

Have you seen...?

     The epitaph labyrinth camouflaging rage, Delivering hope into the bowls of hate, Smiling inhumanity's lethargy receive cherished the clarity of our abandonment of love; We're spite-loathing-full of everything besides our indignant selves...!

In lieu of,
Burning.

Written fate of thorns,

       Candle unwillingly lit bones in darkness of vines splendidly apathetic hope frozen dry despicable sick blindness, Time starved eternity bomb is villainous unrecoverable due to impressionably never desperate or surprise designed hearts, Unrepairably drowning... In their very unapologetic apathy!

In lieu of our participation in,
Never praying but always...
Preying!

I...

    Make venomous mistakes; To remind dying self that despite every day's breath, That I am but a tortuous imprint upon everything else that's living.

In lieu of,
Un-Breathing,
Violently & Careless...

Have you,

    Seen the epitaph unspoken eulogy, The moment unadulterated by a tip-toe-walk when the pendulum unanxiously swings unimpeded by our monsters.

In lieu of,
Never witnessing,
This dying climate!

I am,

    Digitally unwanted, Ever inescapable desire; To be anyone's: Family.

In lieu of,
Dying...
Lonely.

Have you...

     Have you ever scene forever, In the incapable single insurmountable digit eye of thy love, Have you ever seen everything from the future you've ever wanted in a singular moment...

In lieu of...
No; In aftermath,
Of said encounter...
She... Is... My...
Only; Forever!

Bullet damaged hope,

     Unspeakable persistent proof; Of the most hated self ever...

In lieu of...
Outcasting!

Bullet hope,

     Proof of... Our inhumane ongoing persistent tragedy, We're lethargy lingering; In pride spiteful place of empathy; Hope is eternally darkest fight ever attempted shy of our permanent bold hatred adored spire of eternally anticipated any choice inflicted by greed we're yet to make!

In lieu of our anticipation in,
Preying and preying,
Yet to pray...!

Vile harbinger,

    The inevitable evil; Inhaled warmth intoxicating our guts, Purging the faith from our inhuman ever on-noxious-going tragedy, Dark mephitic scripted burnt lethally sick out worse, Is our blackened hope of forever; The hazy every shattering day... Of every living ghost soul person.

In lieu of,
Never writing,
Ever again...

Harbinger,

    The inevitable; Inhale my guts, Purge this inhuman tragedy, Dark scripted burn of the worst blackened hope; Haze of our everyday...

In lieu of,
Writing it all off...

She... XVII

She,

     I'm a growing proxy to... The tangible infinity, I anxiously chase chased her... Every second in between memories, Momentarily sick with indefinite voice impatient numbness' storm, Silently rebuked by the load that out-carries, Trying to move but I'm always nearly dying...

In lieu of...
Twisting poems,
About you're my everything,
Into tangents about; Me!
I never ways very...
Very brave.
jx

Welcome Friday(s) II

Have we...

     Forgotten our consciousness witnessed the world 1st United go emotionally blind, It's an indescribable historical blessed record moment, Livid requiem throbbing unquestioned memory, Undoubted vein death of any left from right wing left empathy over within anyone, Answer; No!
We're the accumulation of our silence, Watching the world burn!

In lieu of,
Watching lethargy;
Win!

We're,

Rotten,

Lethargic,

Splendid...?

Death of hope,

Stained inhumanity,

Faith died with shame,

Apathy wins the day,

In lieu of; Guilt,

Shall we find,

Our way...!

Nervous?

Monster.
We...

All!

Welcome Friday(s)! I

Have you...

     Ever witnessed someone go emotionally blind, It's a true blessing to be able to transcribe, Via actual livid throbbing memory, Because it's the vein death of empathy within someone.

In lieu of,
Watching lethargy;
Win!

She...XVI

She,

     Tangible infinity, Chased memorable never a moment sick of being without you numb; Indefinitely, You're the storm I'm chasing, The hand that rebukes me, The earth I'm moving; Or trying to move, With my everything...

In lieu of...
Chasing metaphors,
Acronyms and pseudo names,
Of you; Forever.  

We've,

    Been manufactured by the collective enemy, The mirrors have taught us to cry unbelievable profoundly wrong; Unjust is our selfish harbinger everything else; Logic, The greatest plight is pointing deadly impact blame at everything we've manipulate created, For in blaming we cancel out our own hurting and pass spitefully on the mental (illiterate are we) health forwarded issues, Undeservedly on to others, Recycling the pain we're left unfeeling...!

In lieu of our participation in,
Watching others internally;
Emotionally bleed;
To suicide death.
Let's not...
Pretend.

We,

     Have been harbinger manufactured since our vermilion birth, To cry unbelievably wrong; Unjust, Developed an allergy to empathy, So fucked is our logic, Pointing lethargic blame at everything we've manipulate created... Surrendering hope to the clues we've conceived and can no longer read. 

In lieu of our participation in,
Butchering compassion;
Wholly!

You're,

The closest,

To forever I'll,

I'll... Ever be,

Dreaming;

Obviously,

About,

Heaven,

It's with you,

Believe it or me,

No story ever written or told,

We and I am the most rotten,

Perfectly broken anomaly,

Describing everything,

And absolutely;
Nothing, is;

Better...

Than;

You!

Get;

Fucked up,

Write poetry,

Hope it all ends,

To die; Each night,

Daily broken pretend;

Haunted by loneliness,

Drowning in the fight,

Under the weight,

Of our vast;

Hopeless,

Lonely,

World!

Get;

Fucked up,

Write poetry,

Hope it all ends,

To die; Each night,

Daily broken pretend;

We're not haunted,

By the weight,
Of our vast;

World!

Have you,

Heard the whispers,

Of the greatest sound,

It is; Silence...!

Ambitions,

Of the unstable,

Maximum favourite,

President of the bastards,

Abstract moral conundrum,

Abandoned: Parent's seep hatred,

Lethargic humanity paraplegic,

Hope stranger; Benign,

Apathy on a mission,

Chronic aggressive,

Equality hung,

Inhumanity,

Existing...

Mission,

On!

Silence,

Pretending,

To pardon; Our,

Haunting inaction,

Rotting our compassion,

Lethargically defined,

We're dying leaves,

Residing in a sea,

Of living ashes,

Inescapable,

Drowning,

Is all...

Hope!

Love...

A limping emblem,

Invisible and nearly numb,

Described by a 'realist,'

Whose lost the ability,

To metaphor,

To dream...

A piano,

Surely scripted,

Hath a weighted voice,

Speaking buried volumes,

Of nostalgic dark love hauntings,

Near memory age forecast drown,

Remembered as the unspoken,

Requiems of symphonies,

Long recollection dead,

Cognitive diamonds,

Inhumanity plagued,

Into the distant,

Unknown...!

A piano,

Hath love,

For the weight,

Of breathless symphonies,

Nearly forever long dead,

Diamonds history drown,

Dragged into silence,
Wherein the numb,

Swallow secrecy,

In order to:

Survive... 

Rouge,

A silent,

Blood colour,

Chalk outlined,

Breathlessly triumphant,

A story line regression,

Into a forever reserve,

Secrecy in muteness,

Quiet in suicide,

Unfixable is...

The writer,

Forever,

Drowning...

Red,
Cap a mask,

Hiding the can,

Or is it the 'can't,'

Buried hidden in hands,

Clasping a heart,

Too long,

Braced,

Dead.

Love,

A fated,

Scoundrel,

An ocean's hope,

Lay as kindness dying,

 A demoralized whisper,

Of earth's dejected faith,

Inhumanity metaphor,

For our numb future,

We've accepted,

All to keenly,

As if...

(!?!)

Love,

The dead,

Hope metaphor,

Carefully murdered,

Misshapen antiquity,

The grave emblem,

Analogy of all,

We're once,

To be...!?! 

Love is a...

Metaphor gone cold,

Seduced demon numb,

Manipulated silent alone,
An unimaginative explosion,

Collective inhumanity detonated,

As a single impact unreality,

By a dread crying dream,

An illogical malignancy,

Forgetting it all,

Everyone...

Is nothing,

But us,

(What a shite mirror)

(Casting a shite reflection)

(My own starving hope economy)

(A bulimic shell gone cold)

(Chalk dead outlined)
(Are our hopes)

(Our dreams)

(For us)

(All)

Optic Intake: Reflect to Deny!

False roses,

Darkness bound,

Resolute of shadow,

Barren unto the grave,

As the tides of our ocean,

Malignant of hope or form,

Poisoned from their infancy,

G-d is a defiant dream,

But a dying regime,

A grey scheme,

Religion...

Buy in,

Or...?

WICKED!

(labels)

(insecurity)

(it's own addiction)

Heaven,

Can't claim,

NO ONE KNOWS,

What's eternally right!

What it takes,

To merely say hello,

Between the blank lines,

I'm penalized for being alive,

Barely breathing between,

The marked delineations,

Painful line scar tattoos,

Written on my arms,

Blown hope wide,

Unconditionally,

At the end...

Silence.

Love,

Hath drown,

Hate conquered,

Commanded into silence,

Rarely submissive,

Unable to break,

Wounded,

Free...

I'm,

Hopeful...

Dishonest self,

Truth's remnants,

Delusional loneliness,

Resolution's road to hero,

A memory's keep-sake,

We're but a tragedy,

Self-blamed-harm,

It was a suicide,

Arms open,

Ripped...

Wide!

Do these,

Digitally frozen,

Inaudible unread words,

Recover a meaning despite,

Never being spoken,

Whispered...

Or said?

There is,

No ending...!

In lieu of,

Death

I'm,

Drowning

 In poetic tears,

Shout screaming,

Metaphors into silence,

The skyward expanse defiles,

Continuously this disposable language,

Frantic labyrinths of the vernacular,

Heaving prose upon exposition,

Fiction is crying in denial,

Lonely as the speechless,

Unrecognizable tongue,

Writhe mouth battling, 

Unable to inaudibly,

Speak even maths,

Two plus death...

Equals silence,

Every day,

Mourning,

As one,

Dying!

Error,

Of breath,

Loveless cage,

Unto me bestowed,

Undestroyable labyrinth,

Fate of the unyielding,

Death written in...

Our reflection,

Known to well,

I'm cherished,

By my own,

Invisible,

Hell...!

Hope,

Breathing,

The tangent,

Universal language,

Never isn't was maths,

It's always been...

But; Music!

For...

It arrived,

First!

Exhausted existence,

Wrought of metaphor,

Dysfunctional self haunting,

Contemporary acknowledgement,

And breathlessly incapacitated; so...

Trapped in a mental labyrinth of health,

Is supposedly an unfathomable happiness,

Discouraging the imaginative impressions,

Ever wishing for something... More,

Than this great insignificant day,

Wherein we rotted in dreams,

Pretending we ever existed,

Despite being invisible,

Sideways in a mirror,

Every single...

Reflection!

Standing...

Suicide near blind,

Ousted from the story,

Attempted every kindness,
Save the infancy beyond the chill,

Aggregated of self beauty in loathing: me,

Everything serpent designed wrought a destiny,

Compromised willingness addicted to metaphor,

Falling face inappropriate care forward numb,

Beautiful catacomb immobilized home,

Fashioned of cauterized prison thorns,

Sick of self protesting the poison,

A brooding anorexic shape,

Born of a deadly mirror,

A familiar's complex,

Self written...!

By a ghost;

Am I?