Will I ever,

 Wake from...

This abominable,

Unfathomable curse,

For which I am eternally,

Holocaust of hope within,

Ever lost and withering,

Entombed inside,

The forever; is,

Helios...!

Play,

A piano,

Remember,

The sadness,

Prod all sorrow,

Rebirth joy,

From dark,

Will you?

Will...

I...?

She...

    Held my un-wished breath to find, Diamond in rough paranoid gravity waters she ruins doubt, Hopeful infinitely perplexed tide against the loneliness anomaly, Burying my unaccomplished forever behind the vacant shell that was me... Drowning am I no longer, In the eternal see of my familiar imbued shame!

In lieu of,

Finding...

No:

Found!

Is she..!

She.... Is,

     Hopeful in the remainder of our story yet to be told, As I rummage through quiet dismay, Her dreams are eternal and I'm unquenchable aging damned and yet to my dismay undying, Grace is forever and yet heaven isn't lovely or holy, It's a spire of elite and unto the rest; Denying...

In lieu of our participation in,

The ever present watching,

Of each other's course!

Ever scene,

    A piano played invisibly; Discounted inaudible ever swaying pendulum swings, Saying the very most ever... Important things.

In lieu of,
Hearing,
Seeing,
Doing!

Have you scene,

      An unspoken epitaph of a long benign forgotten eulogy, The unadulterated moment hope was cremated during finality's pendulum unanxious swing, Unimpeded by the G-d monster a protoplasm gave up the ghost...

In lieu of... Ever,
Witnessing;
Sadly!

There is,

    Always... Judgement, Inter-External verbalized harbinger impending apocalypse, Self-hated-worth is meaningless in the Holocaust mirror face; Standing every... Granted by everyone-for us, No permissions asked, We're a glass dying cannon, Firing bullet-culprits that ever allude to a forecast eternally toxic... For those who proclaim these poems toxic...

In lieu of,
Said toxicity...!?!

Have you seen...?

     The epitaph labyrinth camouflaging rage, Delivering hope into the bowls of hate, Smiling inhumanity's lethargy receive cherished the clarity of our abandonment of love; We're spite-loathing-full of everything besides our indignant selves...!

In lieu of,
Burning.

Written fate of thorns,

       Candle unwillingly lit bones in darkness of vines splendidly apathetic hope frozen dry despicable sick blindness, Time starved eternity bomb is villainous unrecoverable due to impressionably never desperate or surprise designed hearts, Unrepairably drowning... In their very unapologetic apathy!

In lieu of our participation in,
Never praying but always...
Preying!