Double Negative

Anesthetic atheist
Pain must conquer and divide
Fall into the void without sensation
Free of the defensive synapse microorganism
A fan of the random and luck

Please stand still in line
For a free shot to change your life
A vaccination against death the grave
Behave due to amnesia of response
A new synthetic breed immune
To the treason compassion

Anesthetic agent
Tormented for mere hours
Never regret the will to oppose
Rather live till the death of all sensation
Than remember the treason of self denial
Oh fan of the random and luck

Please stand still in line
For a free shot to change to your life
A vaccination against pain we all unwillingly subscribe
Behave unwittingly due to amnesia of response
A new synthetic breed immune to any cause
Especially treason of speaking your mind

Don't tell me move my feet
Or else by a crack I could die
You are the system creator of the divide
A void of compassion choice and will
I'd rather choose the empty nether
Than take your blue shot or pill

Anesthetic anarchist
Tormented for a moments
Never regret the will to oppose
Rather live till the death of all sensation
Than remember the treason of self denial
Behave unwittingly due to amnesia of response
A new synthetic breed immune to any cause
Especially treason of speaking your mind
Oh fan of the random and luck

()

Emotionless was my soul
Until I was touched by you
Changed how I approached life
Woke into an existence
A gift meant for all

I once sought the reaper
The only one who wanted me
Hour by hour alone I worried
Until a vision brought my control

Jealous was death of my life
Until your hand touched my face
Changed my eyes from staring at hell
Awakened into existence
A revelation for all

I once sought the reaper
Who wanted me in his dark
Hour by hour I awaited
My last breath the end of it all
A lie or love that's changing me
Touched by a grace not yet mine
Changed into desire for a faithful side
Once I desired death
Now I long for life
Caring is all

Rain Inside

Please don't rain anymore
Showers of tears fathered by tragic pain
They show lack of restraint overpowering denial
The mystery is apart from wounds
The vast emptiness inside

Rain inside me
Father I cannot oppose
Rain inside me
Overwhelming shame
Rain inside me
Falling under the load
Inside me

Oh purest tears like rain
Delivered me from all restraints
From thunder's deafening sounds
Lightning crashes and I closed my eyes
The wounded mystery in me fell apart
Filled was the emptiness inside

Rain inside me
Control over who I was once before
Rain inside me
Birthed new roots from rotten dirt
Rain inside me
A lame hero once an unloved whore
Inside me

Rain pissed away my self esteem
So glad it ruined my mark on history
No need for approval just oppose
Watch me impose my caring will

Rain inside me
Control over who I was once before
Rain inside me
Birthed new roots from rotten dirt
Rain inside me
A fucking hero once a whore
Inside me

Rain poured pure power upon my will
Washed away what makes men jealous
No need for redemption for untrue judgement
Men sacrificing men to feel more free
I am the villain standing his ground
Beware heed the warning signs
I am my own worst nightmare
Proud to oppose for peace
Pacifism yes ignorance no
Welcome to an equal future
Where every man need not trade for monetary
His soul's deepest yearning
Dreams amidst destiny

Forever Awe

Forever Awe

Forever isn't long enough
To stair in awe at you
But suppose I shall try
It's what I'll have to do

I felt like an uninvited guest in this world
Until I met a most wondrous treasure
A woman that actually cares
The only quality that really matters
Now my life beats your name

Forever wasn't long enough
Now I sit lonely staring inside
At beautiful memories of your face
But they shall never compare
But I suppose they'll have to do

I felt like an uninvited guest in this world
Until I met a most wondrous treasure
A woman that actually gives a damn
From this quality once found will not fall astray

Now I strive to cross the seven seas
You taught me to breath again
A thousand endless nights I'd give
For just one more half denied hug to you
Feel you shutter at the enclave embrace
Forever wasn't long enough
And now I just miss you

Inspired by that special someone, but today, for my mum

Hey Human

Hey human
You've lost your way
Describe the path you took
To arrive here on my display
Hey human

You've been deaf since sunrise
Blind since the first gut punch of the fight
Don't cower when I beckon you forward
Anesthetics have yet to set fully in
So lets play a chess game and wait

Hey human
You lost your fucking way
Jagged path to arrive here
A destination of ire on display
Hey horrid human

Won the bet to convert your soul
Deaf to taunting my simple prey
Cower as your called forward
Anesthetics promised denied
The game is over your too late

Hey human
Lost without your fucked up map
A simple straight and narrow way
No road blocks on your undulating path
Nothing hindered your chosen foot fall
Horrid human precious morsel
Hey Human

Doubted my existence amidst humanity
Blind to photographs of a napalm crusade
Deaf to screams that rent the sky
Enemy of man's everlasting friend
This is the end my checkmate
(I am, my own Satan)

Athiestic Divide

Anaesthetist atheist
Pain must conquer and divide
Fall into the void without sensation
Free of the defensive synapse microorganism

Please stand still in line
For a free shot to change your life
A vaccination against death the grave
Behave due to amnesia of response
A new synthetic breed immune
To the treason compassion

Anaesthetic agent
Tormented for mere hours
Never regret the will to oppose
Rather live till the death of all sensation
Than remember the treason of self denial

Please stand still in line
For a free shot to change your life
A vaccination against pain we unwillingly subscribe
Behave unwittingly due to amnesia of response
A new synthetic breed immune to any cause
Especially treason of speaking your mind

Don't tell me move my feet
Or else by a crack I could die
You are the system creator of the divide
A void of compassion choice and will
I'd rather choose the empty nether
Than take your shot or pill