The Burns of Children

Make me feel like a little child again
Slit my wrists as you pass me by
Infect my wounds with anger
As you burn brand my side with scaring marks
Festering abusiveness still existed after you abandoned me
There is no cure for you the ailment
I'd rather be orphaned forever to loneliness
Than hear the lying words you spit to hide your shame

By blood I'm your family
But in my face you selfishly scream
I want it all, desire your whole
Toss in my face your actions of villainy
And I begin to feel complete in my self given name
Inside I want to abandon the ties that bind
To defy the lies you use to justify your pride
Until at the gates of heaven you'll be hell claimed

Its so clear I see the evidence
To self discipline I should have been wed
Like a lover I should not fear
In her everlasting arms I should have stayed
Like wisdom her touch to my heart is violent at first
But she changes my soul and now I proclaim
To discipline should I have forever remained
Now she professes love upon my eternal name

I saw the bar scene before me drift away
Might have been a pill in the drink you gave
Dethrone the innocence of my body
Rape me through my undergarments
And drink dry the well of my soul
Try to draw me in closer before I wake
While in my drugged up heart my consciousness quakes
Inside I drift away towards the words she would say

Its so clear I see the evidence
To self discipline I should have been wed
Like a lover I should not fear
In her everlasting arms I should have stayed
Like wisdom her touch to my heart is violent at first
But she changes my soul and now I proclaim
To discipline should I have forever remained
Now she professes love upon my eternal name

My uncle rolled away
When he was done with me
Just like he had done with cousin David
Before he claimed his own life
His death in time stole the memory of his name
Just as you did before I imagine David as I hit the floor
Your monstrous silhouette hides my shame
In the shadows as it hit my wall
I was a child when he stole the innocence
My wife should have claimed

Mother saw you light the torch
To hide your fears and bury my remains
Light me on fire and hide the evidence
Proof of all that you might hide
Lies in my shallow dirt grave

It seems like your evil fulfills prophecy
You justify villainy with holy pride
Hide behind a mask of duality for church on Sunday
By blood your my family but you overdosed me on Ritalin
As a result in manhood I can barely call you by name

I fear you all because of judgments
By your self proclaimed holiness you've made
Its clear I must drift away and refrain
From bearing the truth in screams back in your face

My wife now lights the torch
A ceremony to incinerate my remains
And with my body should die your fears
Of all the truth about you in life I should have proclaimed
Her tears flood over at my untimely decaying from this life
The plot thickens as her resolve stands in love to give
Walking to the pulpit to speak a eulogy giving clearance to my name
Welcome to the real funeral my family both to your dreams of heaven
And to end the lies you hoped would be buried with my remains

Its so clear I see the evidence
To self discipline I should have been wed
Before I found my true lover
I stand before her open bear with nothing to hide
In her everlasting arms I shall stay
Like a violent hurricane her touch speaks to the soul in me
And thus changes the way I see everything
To her in discipline I shall forever remain