Monday, August 31, 2009

Hidden Plan Defined

As I commit the unspeakable crime
My wife waits patiently observing traffic outside
Unvalidated she takes control of life's ride
With her methods all goes back to

You can't get rid of me she says
I'll burn the paperwork to control our life
Don't cry husband I own you and do adore
Besides your family will disown you for any divorce behavior

What if I said I'm fine with their dis-ownership
I've walked a lonely life so far I'll take my chances
You can't force me to stay with or any in any way love you
No one should ever have to wait this long in hatred
Just to be told they can't leave coercion is coming

Somewhere wife you got off track, before we met
Look at your family every sibling is and has it
I'm sorry I hurt you but the pain for each side must end
Stop please fighting a painful cause
Can't I with this supposed or labeled battle, just once
I just want to move on and live for a cause which won't end

I watch and cry as all my words get denied
As if they never existed life goes back to how it was before
There are no paths in my life to new doors
Only this adherence to your vengeance
Making responsible for the choices I've made

I know your just waiting for your next great chance
To impose this rule of choice upon me once more
A child will conform me forever to your version of responsibility
Coerced my conformity for sex I couldn't always resist

Everyone saw my face when you broke the news
A kid to keep me always near
That is a road only suicide should ever make
You lied telling I could once walk away
But that was before you planned my life
One day I'll wake up and won't write words anymore

Where we have failed
You could have better or dream of it
I can't be this mate forever yours to be
I need freedom from the hate you breed inside of me

All of this time your religion was burning our bridges
I don't know what you believe but the pain it causes is ridiculous
If you do conform to a God indeed She was not with us
We got derailed and off track from the start
Some equal yoke shit the parents claimed
I see not it wasn't true but its justification of ill actions is smart
Like some divorces, conforming children or fighting for mere riches

Please let me walk this path of new hardship
It wasn't what I planned but I'm ok with that
I'll have to take this chance its truth rings through best
Sorry to go, but if I don't this hatred inside will only grow

1 comments :

Darci said...

Maybe you don't realize the hard path she is walking for standing up for what she believes. and is that all you really wanted from here?

my word verification was churchyo, teehee