Post Ill Guardian Health

As a male, who once suffered from mental ill health in the form of eating disorders for fifteen years from youth to adulthood, I must say that indeed this is a pressing issue in our society.

Not only the predominance of the illness in culture, but how we as a society perceive those who are ill, before, during and after treatment. It is this social stigma that drives the ill from getting help or telling others, even themselves at times, that something is indeed wrong.

One perception is that doctors and family will accept the mentally ill person again, as normal and healthy, only when they are sufficient weight. Now, the above view may not be real at all, but I will say that as an adult with a mental illness, eating disorder, I experienced language in conversation with family that indicated my acceptance and health was tied only to my physical appearance. Which I may add, is the key contributor to having a false self image, leading to an eating disorder, in the first place.

Moreover there is a very dangerous subculture online that follows this illness, creating a vapid plague of content that only procures a deeper rift between the ill and those who perceive them, even if the rift only grows deeper in the minds of either party.

How can we say we love someone, if we do not accept them?

How can we say we accept someone, if we do not understand them?

How can we lay claim to understanding someone, if we spend no quality time with them...?

Help those who are ill understand themselves in the mirror, through accepting them without stigma, either it is within you or not, do not even imply it, lest you make the wound more grievous.

The following are two poems written about my illness and times of struggle.

Dapper Devil

Strapping young lad

Handsome moral heathen

Reprobate hiding a secret

Dreading a porcelain witness

Bloodshot eye disgusted scene

Mother's appalling judgement

Eldest twenty something son

Shackled inside contortions

Mental illness perception

Now everyone looks...

Down on the 'it'

That was him

Unisolated purge incident 

Bulimic acceptance lesson

Holocaust mirror reflection

Starvation self test dummy

Emotion architect upheaval

Anorexic search for...

The elusive demon

Acceptance

Dapper anorexic devil

Moral fibre student advocate

Degenerate perception enslaved 

Trapped inbetween corrupt worlds

Mirror's half convincing truths

Reflections worth devalued

Imperfect scale weight

Daily traumatic issue

Acceptance misery

Unisolated purge incident 

Bulimic acceptance lesson

Holocaust mirror reflection

Starvation self test dummy

Emotion architect upheaval

Anorexic search for...

The elusive demon

Acceptance

Strapping disorderly lad

Conduct loneliness hid well

Solemn scale wish adjustment

Acceptance endorsed by weight

Hospital admittance too late

Behaviour social stigma 

Labels burn the ears 

Trapped in fear

Of discovery

Unisolated purge incident 

Bulimic self inflicted test

Skeletal mirror reflection

Laxative self test dummy

Anorexic warning signs

A near death discovery

The elusive succubus 

Anyone's acceptance

Ghostly white hero

A near death bed scene 

Diagnosis administers regret

Walled in by prescriptions

Social stigma incriminate

Judgements on all sides

Wished into relapse

Hide in the secret

Behind the mirror

Confined in lies

Whelp Prodigy

Whelp prodigy

Golum in the mirror

Dual audio dialogue box

Personality swap paranoia

Schizophrenic shallow breath

Anticipating the incarnation

Of player versus player

Self monologue

In the mirror

Undone

Black oath son

Sheperdless vow child

Intoxicated plot unfolding

Causality of heart reminiscence

Murmuring through violence

Under a bully lord's throne

Father's game unplayed

A Chess surrender

Match of size

Never wit

Loss

Whelp prodigy

Holocaust skeleton

Sideways view hologram

Incapacitated half life illness

Mental anorexic measurements

Decapitated epidermis layer

Daily pound shed or else

Wishing for acceptance

Scale reflected mirror

Tragedy of tomorrow

Suicide time loss

Shoulder weight

Of the world

Alone...