Nonexistence

Whose that man
Beside you in bed
One who holds you
Forgotten about me
Toy mannequin man

Domestic violence
Verbal not physical abuse
Slowly you wrote me out of time
All the negative held in your mind
Sadly I wasn’t perfectly divine
Compared to your dreams
Write me out of existence
Ease back into comfort
The heart & mind

How am I seen
Surely not as one of mankind
Carve me a static soul to fit the shell
Into silence my mind words I would never write
Resounding in historical comparison contempt
A comfort treason committed upon me
It mounts itself behind the Television
Whatever version of compatibility
Your comfort resides in today

Domestic violence
Verbal not physical abuse
Slowly you wrote me out of time
All the negative held in your mind
Sadly I wasn’t perfectly divine
Compared to your dreams
Write me out of existence
Ease back into comfort
The heart & mind

Standards held against a picture
Of a man I’ve never met or seen
His scars my love can’t melt away
Soon I’m censored as wicked
A manipulative mannequin
Sorry I’m a bad slave
No justice from you
Not love either
In your mind

As I drift away
Too far out to save
Reconcile the memories
Do you remember me
Or just the history
Who you wanted
That I couldn’t
Ever truly be

Inner Mission

Contorted syndrome perception
Anorexic imagery self-affliction
Holocaust label filled memory
Too thin in comparison
Acceptance denied

Abated acceptance
Denial of hero status
Remember your sorrow
I am comparable to torment
Imperfect human
So unnecessary
Unfortunate
Woe is. . .
Me

Triumph over addiction
Fought the devil and lost
Coughing up the pills of toxin
Purified water an expense unworthy
Too thin in comparison
Can’t f*cking win

Abate self-contempt
Denied exonerated status
Hero of soul mate I’ m not
Comparable to unholy torment
Imperfect human suffering
Unfortunate life
Woe is me

45

45 calibres Slug
Pulled from the 2nd Christ
Martyr upon concrete streets
Following of a mere thirteen

Mirror image of me
Applaud the false illusion
Police handcuffed when shot
Media picture motion captured
Peer to peer transfer
Stream the truth

45 calibres slug
Pulled from occupy
A movement police defied
Political cover up pulled off
Thirteen million worldwide
U.S media still denies

Mirror image of humanity
Applaud the truthful metaphor
As comfort seeking citizens pretend
Embracing a media motion capture
Peer to peer transfer truth
Stream the resistance

9MM calibres slug
Automatic fire at a protest
Peaceful martyr park occupation
Chief mutters the commands
Obama passed upon them
Nonviolent until death
Open fire

Fairy Tale Devil (Once Was David)

Once was David
Unborn son’s stolen life
Idle crib haunts your anger
Nightly sips of liquid toxin
Instead of paper to a pen
Addiction empty heart
Numbness to sleep
Each silent night

You didn’t see daylight
Yet I'm still burdened
By your breathing
By your life!
David
San

Free my dreams
Haunt naught the rest of my life
Enough repressed sad memories
Clinical choice of permanent loss
At the actions of free choice
Forgot everything on earth
As I flushed you away
Laying you to rest

How can I live each day
When I know you'll never exist
Unborn breath felt upon my neck
Torture the neglect parts of me
You'll never see my dairy
Self-hatred quick choice
I beg you, set me free
Please, oh please

My will is eternal & broken
Once was my beloved son David
Unborn stolen child of mine
Idle crib haunts me at night
Inhale the inhibiting toxin
Instead of paper to a pen
Diary selfish addiction
Empty heart trauma
Numb me to sleep
Each silent night

You didn’t see daylight
Yet I'm forever burdened
By your single moment of breathing
By your clinical still born life!
David my son

David I attempted to replace
Anna is thirteen and bold
My only hope at life
Exchange ghosts
For you tonight
Wish & prayer

Anna journals with me
Asleep now upon my knee
Writing letters to the son I’ll never meet
She is my hope against the immortal silence
The moment of my last breath
As that morning breaks
Can I afford one hope
See a life that never was
I'm coming daily undone
Release me pleading to beg
From a single choice

Once was David
Unborn son’s stolen of choice
Idle crib haunts my nights
Liquid toxin embraced
Journal false fairy tale
Paper visions to a pen
Addiction empty heart
Numb me to sleep
Each silent night

David without daylight
Blue eyes vacant of life
Burnt deep memory scar
Eternally haunted tattoo
Of a silent child
Not breathing
A stolen life
David
San

Free my dreams
Haunt naught the rest of my life
Enough repressed sad memories
Clinical choice of permanent loss
At the actions of free choice
Forgot everything on earth
As I flushed you away
Laying you to rest

I'm down to my last breath
My belief is bound to your ghost
Hold you as I die, be my hero
I fucked up your fairy tale
Birth stolen by my choice
Forever I’ve been waiting
For a heart to begin beating
David son I never knew
But named non-the-less
Memory never faded
Bright light clinic

Against The One (Prejudice Undeserved)

A purpose 99% ignorance neglected
Amidst the suffocation of a world in flames
Not at home in our streets but abroad
Media mess endorses the illness
Self-perception abandoned
For a profit unseen

Faked a god
Wrong reasons to questions
Abandon morality for acceptance
For a humanity I never wanted to be
Why fake a saviour to fuck a God
Never question reasons for hate

Saviour abandoned 99% neglected
Suffocation amidst embraced ignorance
Our world endorsed until inflamed
Not in our streets but abroad
Media promotes the illness
Willingly killed off dreams
Abandoned for profit
We’ll never see

Faked a god
Never questioned why
Abandon morality for greed
Humanity I never wanted to see
Why fake a saviour to fuck a God
Never question reasons to hate
Prejudice against unbelief
Illogical reason denial
Anger drives us

Living in ways
I never wanted to be
To Christ for greed I prey
Boil the paralyzed
For profit

Invisible War

Waging a war
With invisible eternity
Like the corporate state
Normalized effects
Hopeful feelings

Invisible warfare
My missing moments
Liberated by metaphors
Released to inspire
Miracle resolute
As I die away

Purpose in a heart beat
Amidst suffocation of soul
Inflamed by an ignorant world
Media printing off payoffs
What sells depends

Break my string of hate
To live a normal life
Lie of our society
System enemy

Invisible warfare
My missing moments
Liberated by metaphors
Released to inspire
Miracle resolute
As I die away

Wasted

Fuck we wasted them
The peaceful days of life
Undrafted tragic memories
Only ones we’ve got left

Wasted lives
A waste is warfare
Attempted profit ruined
Their one and only motive
Check Wall Street every day

Fuck we wasted them
The enemy lies bloody
Ruins of failed submission
Conqueror of wasted bullets

Wasted lives
Children in warfare
Attempted profit ruined
Their one and only motive
Check Wall Street every day

Eden Fire

Discretion to energize
White fire of all war’s end
Nuclear holocaust humanity
Monetary value on winning

Eden fire is temporary
Pacifying corporate thrones
Until the cycle consume again
Commit the earth to death

Discretion to energize
Atmospheric detonation
A white fire to end all wars
Nuclear holocaust humanity
Monetary value on everything
Sadly on everyone

Eden fire is temporary
Pacify for a single moment
Wall Street corporate thrones
Until the cycle begins again
Commit our earth to death

Discretion to energize
Atmospheric detonation
Strategic white fire confrontation
Ending a single fucking battle
Nuclear holocaust humanity
Profit is a human Judas
Betraying us all
For a moment
Stock rise

Eden fire on Wall Street
Pacify forever in a moment
Monetary destruction of earth
Environment no longer neglected
Dethrone corporate citizens
Kill the cycle forever
Occupy everywhere

The Last Chord

A rude conversation
With my own ghost
Sitting in an arm chair
My piano in ruin at his feet

Difficult fingers
Numb to feeling
Disappointed keys
Black market ivory
Slaves to ruin

Oblivious piano conversation
Slit wrists bleed into the melody
Wounded operation systems
Expectations alter memory
Abrupt form of tragedy

Difficulty feeling
Appendages shattered
Finger disappointed keys
Black market ivory
Slaves to ruin

Typing inspired conversation
Blood clotted sufferer’s melody
Death metal signal inspiration
Solved an ivory mystery
Black trade tragedy

Difficult fingers
Numb to feeling
Disappointed keys
Black market ivory
Slaves to ruin

Voice of a Trinity

The voices deep inside
Dormant they lay silent
Haunting to hunt me down
Choose the next name
Beyond my control

I beckon forth a maiden
White knight forget me not
Misunderstood devouring consequence
Flaying of knives to wrist veins
Closing my bright blue eyes

Multiple selves suffer
Never closing off a chapter
Nameless one in my own tribe
May I choose my own name next time
Controlled suffering of dominant personality

Beckon for a chaplain
Dust off the air I breathe
Make amends with the self
Legion of demons cover up
Haunting to hunt me down
Choosing the name next time
Beyond my unstable control

Multiple selves suffering
Never closing off a chapter
Nameless one in my own tribe
May I choose the name next time
Suffering dominant personality

Demon in a Cage

Normalize the hate
Seasons change but never mine
Destitute to be my own enemy
Wisdom changes nothing
My eternity is set
In stone

A demon in a human cage
Though I’m almost dead
Feel the seeping of death
Bound to a string of hate
Destiny devouring will
Fate is sealed forever
Hell in a human

Standardize the rage
Seasons change but mine remains
Destitute misunderstood self-enemy
All my life wisdom failed to survive
Lived by chivalry only to die
Compared to everyone else
Worthless written wall
Wasted hell life

A demon in a human cage
Spread black wings to change
Though I’m almost dead
Feel the seeping of death
Bound to a string of hate
Destiny devouring will
Fate is sealed forever
Hell in a human

Mind Soothe

Dust off the dream of redemption
Let go a long forgotten past
My soul turned to gray
Like the air I breathe

Recluse in a dark cave
Residing deep within the self
Avoiding vivid recollections of yesterday
Memories pound like an ache in my head

Ruthless patterns of neglect
Misunderstood zombie walker
Meandering still with blue eyes
Until the soul flutters away

Recluse in a mental cave
Home is a hollow hiding place
Helps to avoid vivid recollections
Memories pounding in my head
Of the dreams I left for dead

Ghost still awake
As I fade out eternally
Cold caverns of speckled gray
Upon the walls I’m written
Forgotten as I passed on
Trust no one

Sui-Satisfied

Broke into my head too late
Believed my mind was twisted
Upon the walls were I’m written
Left myself labeled in text
Even after my demise

No one ever satisfied
With a self-hopeless man
Treason upon his own dreams
Living for the grandeur of change
Commit him to the chaos of the afterlife

Hung in a psych ward
Leathery souls slowly dangle
Handed over into Elysium’s custody
Statement read suicidal incoherent chaotic
Believes he’s a justice messenger

If I were rich
Or possibly beautiful
What about just handsome
Courageous with self-esteem
Not mentally ill anymore
Running from care
Be satisfied
With me

No one ever satisfied
With a self-hopeless man
Treason upon his own dreams
Living for the grandeur of change
Commit him to the chaos of the afterlife

Dusted Air

Black rain drops
Dance upon our skin
Staining patterns like tattoos
Another fear came true in life
Fumes we endorsed yesterday
Ghost dome as filters die out
Bust the very air we breathe

God dust off the air I breathe
A sea of plankton before our eyes
Blindly endorsed charcoal air
World’s going gray too early

Asphyxiated by black sheets
Patterns serenade my soul
Whispers willingly endorsed
Dance upon my dying skin
Tattoos forever disguised
As human history

God dust off the air I breathe
A mustard gas cloud before our eyes
Blindly endorsed human holocaust
Corporations swallowing earth
Our world for a profit

A Zombie Called Jesus

Your hatred everlasting
What a shameful crime
To alter perspectives for comfort
Denial of the evidence in every life
Because it’s not captioned in digital

I’d rather side with Satan
Then say I serve your God
Zombie called Jesus indeed
If you believed he truly lived
You could never live like this

Empowering gossip
While betraying justice
Magnified His name in church
Then turned your back on belief
Judge others for what they wear
Or the paycheques the make
All of them unworthy
In your muggle eyes

I side with Harry’s witches
Magic serving to preserve justice
A God granting power to persevere
Satan stole our Zombie Jesus
But only for three days
Do you believe this
I can’t tell

A Zombie called Jesus
Most doctrines condone he lived
He died but no resurrection of life
Mock my beliefs for disturbing yours
I questioned you because of comfort
Said you believed in a theory of logic
Which you knew nothing about
Save what a prof once told

I don’t fucking care
Not whether you’re black or white
What you believe in is an open choice
But how you live it in each & every moment
That is the disgrace between living & comfort
Separating the decrepitly wicked from the trying
I dare you to breath what you believe
Become daily more or less insane
While I persevere forever onward
With my Zombie called Jesus

Maggot Farmer

Gossip maggots
Crawling in shadows
Of God’s hollow eyes
Church tolerance crime
A building of hypocrisy

Welcome to the farm
Willingly charmed occupants
Maggots growing with gossip
Isle seven is empty sister
Slip into false acceptance
Maggots grow with gossip

Hypocrisy maggot
Crawling in their own corpse
Mocked the sacred charms
Open wound carpenter
Prey of his own cross
Wasted on maggots

Labouring from the wound
Festering the plague of violence
Congested by gossip verbal vomit
Diarrhoea which Satan adores
Leeches breath in the fumes
Carcass of the spirit

Disembowelled Karma Shepherd
Embalmed with hell fire unleashed
First occupant wasn’t eternal
Oh wasted pain for maggots
Our corporeal world now embraces greed
Don’t even blink at capitalism politician pockets
While we look down on welfare single mothers
Dying for education to make ends meet
Fuck this corrupt perspective
Maggots all around
Wallow in the dark
Karma is lost
Like equality

So go with Satan
He adores your labour
The empowering of greed
Tolerance of injustice
Harbouring inequality
The pulpit disperses us
Out into a hollow life
Maggots of a corpse

Unsolved

Standing amidst echoes
Misunderstood & nameless
My heart is a game of choice
You lead me on

Leave me unsolved
A riddle wrapped in itself
Walking in a metaphor
Endless black shores

Silent amidst echoes
Unable to recall the memory
Multiple persons dwell within
Which one is me by name

Leave me unsolved
A riddle wrapped in itself
Walking in a metaphor
Endless black shores

Standing amidst echoes
Misunderstood you’re walking away
Leading me into a game of choice
Leaving my heart unsolved
Lead me blindly on

Leaking Performance

Enemy of myself
Tired of false personification
To this point of my performance
Bow out and flee the stage

Blood letting
Past the clotting state
Almost over I can feel it
Said a noose to the neck
Heart weak in pulse
Finally

Failure of performance
Expectations never altered
Torture stage experiment
Bring traumatic back to life
Memories unwillingly described

Blood letting
Past the clotting state
Close your fair blue eyes
Said a needle to the neck
Deep inside myself
Almost dead
Finally

Self-esteem-less marionette
Initiate self-destruct sequence
Hopeless black button chest
Adorns my puppet gown
Walk off exit stage left
Without regret

Blood letting
Past the clotting state
Said a dagger to the wrist
Deep inside myself
Almost dead
Finally

Prance around upon my bed
Under ghost white sheets
Whisper to myself in shadows
Forever closed my fair blue eyes
My own war within withered wrath
Faded out of my own performance
Stepped willing down from the stage

Elements of Earth

Rinse my hands of the climate change
Humanity embraced corporate greed
Environmental refuge take back
New considerate management

Earth
Fire
Wind
Water
War

Contaminated spill
Subject to cleanup
Or perhaps a bribe

Twisted minds
Earth Grinches
Abiding environmental chaos
We spawn food via steel rod rape
Shove them into solitude cages

Oil for war
Water for bottles
Bullets for Capitol
Wages for a dying dream
Driving the corporate machine

Peasant boy bring me water
Reward you on American soil
If you’re not mistakenly left behind
An unfortunate cost tragedy
For an unfree asshole’s dream

Oil of Earth
Bullets to fire
Winds of disasters
Water for production
All for nothing
Can’t you see it
Earth, Fire, Wind, Water
All for war
Killing off
Our earth

Apprentice of Torment

A worthy opponent is my apprentice
A selfish wanderer indulging in prejudice
Longing to achieve victory via my murder
Guilt will be his endless mantle
Eternal burden of ignorance

Forget history’s pages of wisdom
Everlasting quotes of human shame
Warfare achieved today’s corporate comfort
An overhaul occupation is necessary
To rid this world of selfish evils

Satan doesn’t have to wake up
We adore his ways & his self-help fate
Self-consciousness never gives way to awareness
No victory achieved amidst the wandering
Only judgement & a vast comparison
Of our preoccupied human depravity

Forget history’s pages of wisdom
Everlasting quotes of human shame
Unquestioned warfare achieved our comfort
Corporate inhaling of our willing ignorance
An overhaul occupation is necessary
To rid this world of selfish evils

Paralax Podium

Standing on a podium
A lonely platform to excel
Piano keys unlock a melody
A yesterday recollection

Didn't find an answer
Smothered myself out
A hero lost cause in action
Still not quite enough
To force a destiny
Of equality

Standing on a lonely podium
A platform of discipline to excel
Piano keys unlock a beautiful melody
A bitter sweet recollection of memories
No one stands beside or behind
Only my shifting shadow

No answer for me
Only a simple request
Smother yourself out
Awareness incarceration
Get lost inside your own mind
Don’t come back from action
Words disappear daily
Not quite enough
To force a destiny
Of equality

Written out: Generalized Existence

Whose that man
Beside you in bed
One who holds you
Forgotten about me
Toy mannequin man

Domestic violence
Verbal not physical abuse
Slowly you wrote me out of time
All the negative held in your mind
Sadly I wasn’t perfectly divine
Compared to your dreams
Write me out of existence
Ease back into comfort
The heart & mind

How am I seen
Surely not as one of mankind
Carve me a static soul to fit the shell
Into silence my mind words I would never write
Resounding in historical comparison contempt
A comfort treason committed upon me
It mounts itself behind the Television
Whatever version of compatibility
Your comfort resides in today

Domestic violence
Verbal not physical abuse
Slowly you wrote me out of time
All the negative held in your mind
Sadly I wasn’t perfectly divine
Compared to your dreams
Write me out of existence
Ease back into comfort
The heart & mind

Standards held against a picture
Of a man I’ve never met or seen
His scars my love can’t melt away
Soon I’m censored as wicked
A manipulative mannequin
Sorry I’m a bad slave
No justice from you
Not love either
In your mind

As I drift away
Too far out to save
Reconcile the memories
Do you remember me
Or just the history
Who you wanted
That I couldn’t
Ever truly be

Knuckle Rot

Knuckle rot
Break my fingers
Crawled through a deserts
How I managed to get this far
Perfectly covered in scars

Dragged out beyond the social wall
Left alone to crawl right back
Tortured along the way
By bullies accepted
In our society

Knuckle rot
Fingers without skin
Pealed back to find Satan
Willing peers we call bullies
Socially accepted until a death occurs

Dragged me too far out
I slept in the desert without water
Skin dried up covered in blood
Tomorrow’s death on Sunday
Rather sleep with the devil
Than know this life today
Comfort perpetuates
Social disorder
Middle class slumber
This is our homeland decay
No matter what I say
only those ready
Will get a word
Written tonight

Knuckle rot
Pledged knife to skin
Dragged through decades
Bullied throughout my life
Didn’t turn out quite right
Sorry for the confusion
I know you ordered
A perfect son
Not sorry
Though
Your prayer was a sin
Unprepared to cope with me
An anorexic rebel stomach sunk
Purged the self of wasteful toxins
A minute man husband generalized
Not a compliment just comparison
For the work I paid with my life
Crawl back into your haven
Knuckle rot stem cell
Corpse research
The benefit
Of my life

Monster Man

I’m not a fucking father
Lied about desiring children
A handsome mannequin of a man
Just a shell of someone’s magazine dreams
Generalized as a douchebag of a man
Comparison forgot who I am
Not aware of the moments
That I lived near your life

Vital vein damage done
No one hears me screaming
Heart throbbed under the guilt
A verdict of vindictive comparison
I could never change enough to be him
Monster douchebag eulogy
Given loyalty while cheating
I the bastard for loving you
While attempting chivalry
Damage already one
Too deep to see me
The bastard
Monster

A father deprived of life
Abortion from my imperfection
Never told the right to life decision
Just a handsome mannequin of a man
Just a shell of someone’s magazine dreams
Generalized as a douchebag of a man
Comparison forgot who I am
Not aware of the moments
That I lived near your life

Vital vein damage done
No one hears me screaming
Heart throbbed under the guilt
A verdict of vindictive comparison
I could never change enough to be him
Monster douchebag eulogy
Given loyalty while cheating
I the bastard for loving you
While attempting chivalry
Damage already one
Too deep to see me
The bastard
Monster

Then I showed up
Woke up your heart
Only to hear you screaming
Get the fuck out young bastard
I left & you hated me for it
Either way I was the devil
Compared to your past
Generalized against
A monster

Dapper Devil

A handsome young man

Long haired heathen demon

Multi eyes of a beholder

Judged all the time

Perception is truth

I the memory

Iris hovers under half closed lids

See me as Satan undercover

Possibly an victimized angel

Whatever you perceive

I am unworthy of…

Whatever is love

A strapping young lad

Merely a complex structure of cells

A random assembly of electron energy

Neutrons unavailable to complete me

So say what it is I should be

Oh eyes of the beholder

Perspective exists

Call me a name

Iris hovers under half closed lids

Light dances behind dim shades

See me as Satan undercover

Possibly a victimized angel

Whatever you perceive

I am unworthy of…

Whatever is love

Not for a moment what I seem

A fairy tale of make believe humanity

Unworthy of cell structure & thus a name

I’ll be okay not afraid to know myself

Perception anorexia already broke(in)

Declare my deception for everyone

Engulf in my own verbal pyre

Set free to burn a moment

My very own forever

Iris hovers under half closed lids

Light dances behind my shadow

See me as Satan undercover

Possibly a victimized angel

Whatever you perceive

I am unworthy of…

Grant me thusly

A villain’s name