Fairy Tale Devil (Once Was David)

Once was David
Unborn son’s stolen life
Idle crib haunts your anger
Nightly sips of liquid toxin
Instead of paper to a pen
Addiction empty heart
Numbness to sleep
Each silent night

You didn’t see daylight
Yet I'm still burdened
By your breathing
By your life!
David
San

Free my dreams
Haunt naught the rest of my life
Enough repressed sad memories
Clinical choice of permanent loss
At the actions of free choice
Forgot everything on earth
As I flushed you away
Laying you to rest

How can I live each day
When I know you'll never exist
Unborn breath felt upon my neck
Torture the neglect parts of me
You'll never see my dairy
Self-hatred quick choice
I beg you, set me free
Please, oh please

My will is eternal & broken
Once was my beloved son David
Unborn stolen child of mine
Idle crib haunts me at night
Inhale the inhibiting toxin
Instead of paper to a pen
Diary selfish addiction
Empty heart trauma
Numb me to sleep
Each silent night

You didn’t see daylight
Yet I'm forever burdened
By your single moment of breathing
By your clinical still born life!
David my son

David I attempted to replace
Anna is thirteen and bold
My only hope at life
Exchange ghosts
For you tonight
Wish & prayer

Anna journals with me
Asleep now upon my knee
Writing letters to the son I’ll never meet
She is my hope against the immortal silence
The moment of my last breath
As that morning breaks
Can I afford one hope
See a life that never was
I'm coming daily undone
Release me pleading to beg
From a single choice

Once was David
Unborn son’s stolen of choice
Idle crib haunts my nights
Liquid toxin embraced
Journal false fairy tale
Paper visions to a pen
Addiction empty heart
Numb me to sleep
Each silent night

David without daylight
Blue eyes vacant of life
Burnt deep memory scar
Eternally haunted tattoo
Of a silent child
Not breathing
A stolen life
David
San

Free my dreams
Haunt naught the rest of my life
Enough repressed sad memories
Clinical choice of permanent loss
At the actions of free choice
Forgot everything on earth
As I flushed you away
Laying you to rest

I'm down to my last breath
My belief is bound to your ghost
Hold you as I die, be my hero
I fucked up your fairy tale
Birth stolen by my choice
Forever I’ve been waiting
For a heart to begin beating
David son I never knew
But named non-the-less
Memory never faded
Bright light clinic