Sunday, November 3, 2013

767 Anyone's Mum III

When Maureen was an innocent child
She used to spend convulsive intervals wondering
Stim packing her bipolar no second chances personalities
Wherever she traversed, Upheld by whose kidding juxtapose idiom voices
They didn't believe in her, just like her derelict space odyssey mother
Just like her mother's cold she wanted a boy off in the distance stare...
Backyard toxic screen check language chasing her out the door
Escape the fear bomb story of one heavy handed conversation
Polygraph video kaleidoscope memory gland held it all in
Mourning after journal entries of hidden treasure
Found herself in another predator's video
No it was her merely mum's brother
An uncle's vigilant paedophilia
The vile reality of a hunter
Yet she rose amidst pain
Locking away misery
Spasms of ache

When my mum was innocent and beautiful
She used to spend convulsive intervals of time
Trapped shivering behind manifested parental prejudice
Willing herself to believe she could reclaim her withered smile
If only she could reach her backyard sandcastle universe
Beyond the screen toxic language closed door
Patiently tolerating the tirade amidst tears
Liberation came as the fist was raised
Besieged child of pain's dialect
Swollen eyes can't escape
Auditory multiple voices
Valid sanity response
To insane
Circumstances 

When Maureen was a tormented youth
Forgettable no family table disgraced scraps
She used to spend convulsive intervals sedated
Bed sex payment riddled packing her bipolar personalities
Into no second no one's ever kidding juxtapose idiom chances
Where schizophrenic dualities of disorderly personality misconduct spoke
Derelict multiple sinking voice over the side ships that didn't even believe in her
Just like her cold no hearted drunken mother wish she was a boy mother
Even the scrimmage of personalities within didn't dare perceive value
Just a distant half periodic mirror's loathing reflection stare
Backyard tox-memorandum-screen to check her baggage
Always hateful language chased her out the back door
Vengeful wish she was never born insighted hatred
She never could escape the fear bomb story
Of every nights red one righteous handed
Down from a father's mismanagement
Illicit kaleidoscope face paint
Phantom bruises never recorded
Never recorded Phantom shades
Unlimited resource of bruises
Police line up aspirations
Conviction left unproven
Falsified detective work
Polygraph darkness test
Child falsely incriminated
Trapped in an idle rime
Pain endowed shiver
Frozen happiness
Permafrost exposure
Balloons never drifted away
Freedom like hope
Lost

Father's betraying fingers
Like daggers to the heart of shame
Nightly mirror polygraph diagnosis
Test she failed twitching in a stigma
Holocaust thin on high accident metabolism
Hands reaching for enlightenment stardust brings
Acceptance despite the horrid word sticks
Painful fists of stone work ran amok
Penetration rampart skin walls
Damaged by derelict waives
Beaten black and red tide
Bruises mingled in blood
Kaleidoscope epidermis
Shore lines of woe
The shame of rust

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