The Attempt to Wake

Is there something you’re attempting to say
I know you purposely forgot about loving anyone
Your heart was wounded multiple times
Patient tender tactics broke down
We woke demons

Just like you
I’d been stepped upon
We both were hurt
And crawled into our respected ways

In an attempt to cope
I built a broken chivalry cage
You took refuge in a dark cave
Just to make it by each day

There is something I attempted to say
But I broke down when I saw the signs
So many wounds neither of us could hide
Attempting to open our walls
We woke demons

Just like you
I’d been stepped upon
We both were hurt
And crawled into our respected ways

I’m wishing all the best for you
Too much shit I put you through
Shall I let you crawl back into your cave
While I take refuge in my broken cage
We woke demons we cannot hide
But can we fight…

Karma Shepherd: A Film to Forget

A lucid dreaming mother wished and watched
As the tele broadcast confirmed all she denied
I recorded while the world saw too much
Nothing like they'd ever seen or felt before
I held onto his legs as they took his life

The family watched the screen begging
The camera to stop unlocking the truth
That was hidden behind hoping doors
Oh fathers and mothers I'm sorry
Our road is broadcast in blood
And it is upon my hands

I filmed while I held him down
The victim soldier begging not for life
But the newly appointed surgeon for morphine
As the saw blade took off his mangled hands

It's nothing like you've ever seen or felt before
Broadcasting poetic verse of loss of life
Like a novel written on a current war
A pathetic Psalm dialogue the horror
Of the Karma Shepherd's denial
To step in and save anything
Where is he or God
In all of this mess

This is my novel of war
My pathetic attempt at a Psalm
A dialogue between us and war
To the Karma Shepherd and god's
Who seem not to care anymore

I filmed while they held her down
The victim soldier begging not for her life
But for the knife at her throat to end her torture
As the opposing warriors took turns raping her

It's nothing like you've ever seen or felt before
Broadcasting poetic verse of loss of life
Like a novel written on a current war
A pathetic Psalm dialogue the horror
Of the Karma Shepherd's denial
To step in and save anything
Where is he or God
In all of this mess

I filmed while the tank rolled by
The children who lay dying about the streets
Flies lingering where burns had mutilated the flesh
Blinded by fire from the tree of life's falling leaves

Fathers and mothers know this
Your sons and daughters are dying
Ants like parasites pouring into an endless battlefield
Until their blood vaccinates the whole earth
No war could ever compare to this
I, Lucifer documented all of it
Where was Karma or God
During all this bloodshed

Karma Shepherd: Forgets

Denying the proof of anger
You must walk upon coals of fire
Raging beats the heart within my chest
Drawing swords to fight myself
For the children who are dying
Why

Karma Shepherd why
Forgot the suffering as they die
Time steals all valuable substance
That any warrior has ever fought for
Yet kings and democracy run free
Rampant is the evil oh karma king
Forgotten are the last

Often times Karma Shepherd forgets
While children walk bear feet on concrete
The lazy waste water washing it clean
Flushing it away while others starve
When will the ignorance field fall

Karma Shepherd why
Forgot the suffering as they die
Time steals all valuable substance
That any warrior has ever fought for
Yet kings and democracy carry on
Empowering rampant corporate greed
Rampant is the evil oh karma king
Forgotten are the last in line
Until a viral virus online sets them free
Then taxes and unforgiveness
Retell their entire history
Questioning their lives
Until they give up
Surrendering to a contract
And the blackness of taxes
And the corporation of Parliaments

Once I believed in a savior I couldn't see
Everyone wanted proof while I watched life
Taint their transgressions with logic
Without the morality of god's
There is no good or evil
Setting them free
To lock away
Compassion

Karma Shepherd v1.0

I can't stay with chivalry
Sometimes I just run away
Hiding and screaming in poems
Smithing my life upon pages
Is this my escape
Or my crime

Karma Shepherd said
No shape shifting again
This is your last memory
Transgressions broke the soul
We should have let it go
We should all know why
Our last breath
Is our last crime

I can't stay with morality
No one believes in it anyway
So I sit and wander in poems
Hiding behind words while I cry
Smithing my life upon pages
Is this my escape
Or my crime

I'll never find heaven's doors
No matter how courageous
Sin is the anchor holding me back
So sorry to my guardian angel
Held you down and lopped off your wings
Was so selfish to take you with me
But now you've moved on
And watch me in hell
Down from the skies

Karma Shepherd said
No shape shifting again
This is your last memory
Transgressions broke the soul
We should have let it go
We should all know why
Our last breath
Is our last crime

Karma Shepherd said
Goddamn it, fuck, I don't care
Stupid blind and ignorant humanity
They embody ignorance by choice
Just so they can embody their feelings
If heaven claimed me but not you
I'd beg the karma Shepherd
So send me back to earth

Portrait Pictures

Now I know why your walls are bare
Neglect pictures like memories
Don't remember their faces
So they can't harm you
Anymore

Every memory past
Is a sad painful song
Jading a beautiful figurine
For me to dance with

Keep the walls clear
So no memories can dance in your head
Do damage build guilt or regret
Walls cannot scream
If you keep them
clear

Every memory past
Is a sad painful song
Jading a beautiful figurine
For me to dance with daily

I'm not another regret
But maybe you'll fill your walls again
Lest you forget to remember me
When I pass away at age 33

After I've gone
I'll always be near
Your guardian angel
No matter where you go
Your all I'll ever see

Sign of Life

Call me a child
Thin and gaunt
Attempting to be strong
Someday I hope to breath
To make someone feel right
See me as more than a faint sign of life

People look upon this young man
Lost but handsome in their world
A cold place of empty visions
lonely is his solidute in dreams

I show signs of slavery
Suite and tie office ornament
Black steel bow tie below nose ring
Piercing blue eyes betwixt silver lense
Above all the contagous smile

Call me a child thin and gaunt
Attempting to avoid more injury
All the landmines of your past
Attatched to marrionette strings
Judgement jury your own witness
Frustrations stealing my faint signs of life

I show signs of slavery
Suite and tie office ornament
Black steel bow tie below nose ring
Piercing blue eyes betwixt silver lense
Above all the contagous smile

I could be taught anything
Become a man with selfesteem
The man you need even for a while
Until your head is too filled with doubt
Look at me and say what's the difference
Just another hurtful picture of the past

Commit to the Sea

Commit me, for in my mind I part seas
Sculpting picture with words in every breath
Every one is an attempt to open closed doors
Abandoned shipped line their distant shores
For once you arrive, your completely free

Commit me unto death
Into the sea of love I sink
After pillaging another heart
Always was the captain
Of a slowly sinking ship
Why fight to stay afloat
When I'm bound in chains
To an invisible anchor

Commit me, for in my mind I part seas
For a love you deserve I'd sculpt my life
Every attempt was the wrong turn of the key
Until I smashed open the treasure's lock
But I broke the heart inside her chest

Commit me unto the sea
Walking the death plank
To dwell upon hell's shores
After pillaging a wounded heart
The chains held me captive
To an anchor that kills most men
Could not give what you deserved
So I took the plunge
Into bitter depths
So you could sail away
Free to find the man
I could not be

A Hero Early Slain

This letter is to you
Hero slain I never knew
Everything I am resides hidden
Behind your soul's shadow
You left behind

Constantly questioned intent
Who am I to challenge her dreams
I am not the soul mate you were meant to be
An issue at every turn I am not your equal
But I'm not angry at the turning of tides

I'll tell you how it goes for me
A rough time living in your legacy
Beautiful is the destiny left behind
Turn your gray sails back
To the woman you left
Swap with me and swear it
Live to love until your seventy eight year
When you breath your final breath

She finds it hard to breath
When her heart is grasped by the memory
I am not what I seem when she looks at me
I have many faces but none of them are mine
Inflamed by your bitter sweet shadow
I reside in as a living mirror
Broken at reflecting your memory
I am a twisted youth illusion
To the soul mate you left behind

I wound her daily
The timing may be wrong
She should remove herself from me
The key is to leave behind what harms
So the wounds can heal and pass away
I delay her recovery

So please hero slain
I beg to trade your soul for mine
But one promise you must swear
You must actually live for her
With every waking breath

I'll be okay
Don't worry about me
Long ago I already abandoned ship
Heaven took one look at my sails and said
Sail away from our shores oh serpent
No villains dwell here ever more
I accepted my fate long ago

So lets trade souls
Here we go gray hero
I'll pay your eternal price
Swear the oath and come back to life
She deserves what I cannot possibly be
Don't turn back to see me burning
Bare feet upon burning shores

Blueprint to Backwards

Living in a memory
Opposite view of real time
Like flying plains backwards
Tearing themselves apart
Back until blueprints

Artificial retrospect
Short fused photographic memory
Puzzles of the mind half transparent
An introduction to losing time
Disconnect from sounds
Until my eyes see you

All memories are an alias
Synapses failing to bridge the gap
Restructuring my depth of real time
Body crawling unknowingly backwards
Until the womb once again encompasses me
I disappear back into blueprint

Artificial retrospect
Short fused photographic memory
Puzzles of the mind half transparent
An introduction to losing time
Disconnect from sounds
Until my eyes see you

Allergic to all my memories
Lethargic to life as I am dead
The nether reconstructed forces me
Backwards into a place of beauty
Emotionless are my crimson eyes
For all I behold is but behind
A tragic blueprint of death
An intoxicating memory

An affliction of artificial retrospect
A disconnected photographic memory
Introducing my mind to and anchor
Images of my dying as the past
Collecting data for karma
Heaven was my lonely hell
And they are both alive
My future and my past

Pigs Wandering to Pirates

Wandering eyes
Build up vile dreams
Lustful is the mind's fire
A fight waiting to explode

Eyes on a cruise
Beaches sight's toxic paradise
His mind sailing away into dreams
But all the doors are locked
Will of the heart failing
His eyes her chest's captive
Fucking male pigs everywhere
Failing the simplest quest

Wandering eyes
Pushing a lover away
Building walls of emotional neglect
Explaining it away pillages the heart
The plank of fear ever before her
White lies are often a courtesy
A pig whose better off dead

Eyes on a cruise
Beaches sight's toxic paradise
His mind sailing away into dreams
But all the doors are locked
Will of the heart failing
His eyes her chest's captive
Fucking male pigs everywhere
Failing the simplest quest

Wandering eyes
Sailing away again
Right in front of the treasure
Held captive by a pirate
Yet a willing victim
Desiring to board
All enemy ships

Courage
You deserve it
Before my untimely death
Walked the plant into your dreams
As life sailed away into passion
Can't look back to behold
Love's red shores