Aware War

I'm less effective then any
More mallignant than most
Potently benign yet blind
Stumbling forever in suffering

A self limited future
Disposition of ill existence
Grace's death built in awareness
Awoken into a sophisticated self war

Woke into a self aware war
Internal opposition to demands
Conflict ridden internal perception
Lucid lacking instinct cognition

Sound psyche in irational rotation
mental facult capacity impaired
Debilitated by disease a degenerate
A dismantled life tarnished with prejudice

Woke into a self aware war
Internal opposition to demands
Conflict ridden internal perception
Lucid lacking instinct cognition

Blemished by choices of wounding words
Imparted to her to deter not deminish
Devalued and damaged I am declared
Just judgment disqualify me from love