The Moniker of a Jester

Made to feel like a moniker jester
Name unknown as a John Doe
A villain with a cross to bear
Martyr or suicide it is unclear

No life memories left
Can't recall a moment of calm
Just an unreal cold silence
Of my silent six foot tomb

I failed to made the cut
A mere minion of a moniker jester
Name forgotten just another John Doe
A villain with an invisible cross to bear
Martyr or suicide it's still up in the air

No conscience left for remorse
Bring my eyes to bear forth tears
Just an unbearable silence
My last chance past now
Silent I'm six feet under