Agony at a Beautiful Cost

I accepted a great agony
But fuck, what a wonderful cost
Lust overcame your self imprisonment
At the sight of me the raping began
Amidst the shouting and tearing
I understood you knew no shame

You raped me for all I am
In the aftermath I enjoy the evidence
I'm still disappointed how it all began
But she'll always be the cost I love throughout time
We march on together and I accept the agony
And the beautiful cost

So far away from love was your lustful screaming
In the silence I became agony until the brink of death
Far away from hope behind a cage of rusty shouting
I barely heard your angry frustrations wishing only for silence
No shame came from the lusts in your head upon my living flesh
So unpredictable the danger in how your eyes see
I was never any measure of brave before her life began
The ultrasound became the vision of humanity in me

But for the glory in shifting shadows
Forever silent I would have been
I was at the brink of death
In your mental circus of absence lustings

You raped me for all I am
In the aftermath I enjoy the evidence
I'm still disappointed how it all began
But she'll always be the cost I love throughout time
We march on together and I accept the agony
And the beautiful cost

On the stand no one saw frustration or fear
Inside me grew a wonderful gift amidst the agony
However brave I might seem inside I wasn't pretending
Now all I live for is something you cannot yet see
She is the most beautiful creation of my victimized cost