Letters from the Enemy

A version of imaginary love
The camouflage for your rage
A cage of darkness build to hide
A letter you never sent
Destroying you from deep within

All came down that day
You refused to acknowledge life as the grandest fight
Never wrote or sent that spiteful letter that could've ignite
Avenues of passions or anger now we'll never go
Determined your way was the only way to show
Love no man could ever come to understand
But now your heart will never know

When all is assembled at the end
You might see love and know
How to write it to show
But right now I just don't care
Can't destroy a heart that isn't there
Break your words against my swollen ears
You sold my soul into darkness to save yourself
Comfort chosen from a list of easy paths to take
Leaving me in hardship all alone

A letter never sent, sealed against the lips of fate
Words spoken in torment sung deep into my heart
You sold the truth hidden deep within your soul
To embrace the comfort, now your heart will never know
And the innocent secrets written decaying the whole
Now the demon you are is so very clear
Angels like you don't make it to the end
Banished by your own lack of energy or will within
You...

What of your secret sins that spit evil in my eyes
Must love let them go or will you betray me again just the same
Or do they overtake me in shame I cannot bare
Stone heart from the abuse, took my smile and left me there
A path of martyrdom you've witnessed but cannot declared unfair
For you...

Just like your secrets the pain lies under my skin
Thickened by a war imbued by your simmering rage within
Broke my soul with hate from a love you've never known
Laid waste to the last chivalrous intention, never to be shown
Bringing images of demons like you betraying me left behind long ago
If you can change I don't really think I care or want to know

Your cheap words break against the waning strength of my energy
Run away to beg the gods for comfort your all the same
Desperate to breath my lungs intake the water of lies
Drowning in wicked coerced intent with violent vocals quite are my cries
Into the gestating hands of your all devouring clockwise fate
My counter measures weren't enough like the dying images of a saint

So with your friends behind spit pity into my veins
Breathe lies of hatred from your souls that you could not with hold
Behind them lay words with desperate intent to control
Fuck my energy and who I am, you want a prince but I'm no saint
I see you lost the vast pretentious war for your soul
The last evil never imagined real ripped apart, your no longer whole
The greatest enemy you never knew was yourself

Walked the paths against the book of life
Just to appease comfort you took the easy way
The enemy never needed any help
Because you abandoned shit to sell me out
My soul was punished by the world long ago
If anyone cares I don't think I want to know

I only hope they all come to see
The only enemy you have to fear is self

Dear Whom'ere

Dear diary where have all my friends gone

I presumably begin to see they were buddies along the ride

You know for those good old fucking times

But now I lay here my system shutting down again

Dialysis kicks in another organ downed by disease

Dear old friends why have you gone leaving me in darkness alone

Have you no morality, no holdings onto right or wrong

I call you with my last phone call to knock at your door

A tongueless response with a single finger despairing my gaunt face

Leaving me speechless on your steps, I hang up on the dial tone from my end

With my last strength I drop the wire and lay that hand to my chest

Feeling lost and betrayed all yellow skinned and motionless in my bed

While you move on your healthy life in full blossom, don't stop for the wounded

In my heart I am crucified

The medication and act of dying blurs my vision of right and wrong

Only in the gardens of God will this final version of me ever be known

May I not hate in heaven as I did here in my final days wilting all alone

Another tremor rakes me, I know this ones not mental... I will soon pass on

But before I do, or after I suppose, read on!

Dear family you claim words of love but that is all

They are feelings attached to my former image of a healthy self

But now I look around my white room in disgust at the emptiness

You fed your own desires to feel comfortable about your future

And left me here to rot alone wiping your hands clean

Of the images of nurses cleaning vomit as they wash my decaying body

The dying prelude to eulogy effigy I've become

The nurses run in as I scream with rage

Injecting a serum to sedate, already vomit covers my hospital bed

Dear everyone fuck you all, I know the anger is wrong

I'll embrace it because not one of you will ever know

Not how your leaving me exempt my final days of any love

So fuck you all straight to the core,as I've grown cold

Everything you ever said melded into one a vision of lying words

You claim as love, but inside I'm alone on that hill top

Carrying my own cross

The medication and act of dying blurs my vision of right and wrong

Only in the gardens of God will this final version of me ever be known

May I not hate in heaven as I did here in my final days wilting all alone

Another tremor rakes me, I know this ones not mental... I will soon pass on

But before I do, or after I suppose, read on!

Dear God I never knew Your love but I diagnosed the truth

You were real even if other man's abandonment to pleasure pulls were stronger

Now I'm sedatedly slurring waiting for a whispering but content to be

Even if I never again stand I now speak telling them all where their love went wrong

We all make mistakes but they don't know to me theirs were fatal

Dear everyone, have you fallen from love

Do you see me as weaker, now that I'm sickly?

Do you believe that all the weaker must die?

Where has the integrity of chivalry is it gone?

The society of vanity can't exist if I wished mirrors to death

Do you cling so desperately to the looking-glass

Would their still be beauty if I blew them all away

Without makeup, fashion shops, or magazines

I am the sweat smelling decaying while living one

Do you believe I the weaker must die?

Waracle's Policy

Controlling lives by inconsistent claims
While amassing armies for wars creating more terror and debt
Forcing yourself forward through controlled bursts to immerse
Deep into a foreign policy founded in a new morality, an abstract creed
Bending behind the scene, reality while your leaders claim to bow down and pray
To the same entity their self created terror cells praise
Proclaiming God's love for the glorious selfishness of their nation
I'll daily write against you all with the force of my mind behind the pen

Rescue missions to fall back upon are gone
Swallowed like a child's mind force fed detergent
By agents paid for by the pentagon... (the C.I.A)
A system of tax funded payoffs, bribes, deals, and death

Screaming over a mic while your missiles fly and torpedo warheads
Awoke tortured half alive but almost dead, spoke in union with the outcry
Against your vicious self absorbed mentality
Justifying your consistent war crimes, but your a 1st world power, the dominant country
Failsafe button for your failure, prefire a minister or secretary to defend
In a statement criticized the media quoted he resigned or maybe held pay until he quit?
Dictating a system to generating mass militant revenue,
As the world's view changes towards everything thats labeled 'from you'
They see straight through to all the economic motivations driving your machine
Waracle prophesied the creed you corrupt, a scripture based faith modified
Allowing you to conceal benefit while you invade, steal and ruin, claiming a constant threat
But beware soon they'll all be justifying the same unfairness you enact back towards you

Rescue missions to fall back upon are gone
Swallowed like a child's mind force fed detergent
By agents paid for by the pentagon... (the C.I.A)
A system of tax funded payoffs, bribes, deals, and death

(america for american)
We're blinded by our fun
A hypnotic trance of grandeur
The greatest dream of america
Land of the terror ruled
Government controlled free

(america for americans)
No equality even for our own
If you cause me strife
I'll strike you down
And your death should go unknown

Soon you'll face the terror of denied grace when the collectors come to call
A single digit debt left now you know the ruin of past betrayals and bank protocol
Not a terror cell strike but a Union of Europe performing total recall on your bills
Governments inside the UN uniting against the creed you represent
While their children all watch 20 minute tutorials on your hypnotic mind rape
Of how you sought control by direct supply and armament of their former alliance trends
Associated with you now they regret, pushing you away to find freedom from suicide threats
Soon they'll deny they know you and your fuel driven foreign policy of debt(hate)
Unwrapped your foolish image and by your faith of selfishness your come undone

Shit Faced

Look at yourself all shit faced as you stair into heaven
Closed gates staring back, shut out by your life's negative energy
It doesn't bother me its your own soul's vengeance against your mentality
Can't you see, nothing you believed is what it seems
Hes about to let you in, but I'll assure you soon you'll find reality as evil in heaven
As it could be in hell, at least there the devil'd let you have your TV even just to hate what you see
Its so much harder to recluse into that groove when theres no TV or couch
But nothing you ever believed is what it seems

All you've got is comfort until your in heaven's mansions
Then you'll go inside find your treasures gone
And go insane from the ache of loss attached to images you stored deep inside
Given what you deserved so don't feel pain within your troubled mind
Nothing to get shit faced off in heaven only reality and grace
Are you in heaven, if so why is your heart filled with hate
At God because she left you nothing to be filler noise
Now your alone with your consciousness
Oh, and I hope you enjoy

Your shit faced, punch drunk, off to the bastard fast track ignorant images on TV
Never let any Jesus out of fairyland you pushed yourself away from positive energy
Until all those hurting screams collapse the slave children's angelic lungs
Just to live in your ignorant reality that there is no way they make everything you live with
You could have been so much more but I watched you whore others off just to leave you alone
Raping your mind to claim ignorance for all the pain you swore you never could have caused

All you've got is comfort until your inside heaven's gates
Then you'll find your mansion empty of your treasures
And go insane from the ache of loss
Attached to images you stored deep inside
Given what you deserved so don't feel so much pain
Nothing to get shit faced off of in heaven only the reality of shame
Are you in heaven, if so why does your heart hate
Is it at God's will that she left you nothing to be background noise
Now your alone with your consciousness
Oh, and I hope you enjoy

Now stand before that militant force of holy anger
With selfish energy you fought fairness and killed your own righteousness
Pushed your self into TV land just to fill your mind with noise
But when you get anywhere unless your like always shit faced
You won't enjoy the sound of words I declare as my greatest joys

God rest your soul, maybe not, but we're not surprised
Forever angry, determined to suffer against fairness
Screaming, I want this.... without a please
I need that, don't deny me my comfort recliner chair
And remove that hand from my remote bitch
Don't deny me or 'I swear'!

All you've got is comfort until your in heaven's mansions
Then you'll go inside find your treasures gone
And go insane from the ache of loss attached to images you stored deep inside
Given what you deserved so don't feel pain
Nothing to get shit faced off of in heaven only reality and grace
Are you in heaven, if so why do you hate
Is it the God's because they left you nothing to be filer noise
Now your alone with your consciousness
Oh, and I hope you enjoy

You deny them pleasures enjoying their succulent pains
Feeding off the violent red velvet tears as their holy energys die
All the while fucking complaining they haven't kept up the filler noise
Fuck you straight to the core I hope you receive your treasures in heaven
Then you'd find yourself in a mansion without a TV, couch, or internet
To see your daily whores, then you'll be filled with so much hate
You may be in heaven, but you won't enjoy its decadence against you getting whats truly yours
Soon you'll subliminally wake and tremor as your soul's energy quakes
Shaking in the presence of who you really are
No more fucking TV, or wounding others by the destructive nature that is
Who you fucking are!

Modified Truth

Eternal truth-off-set broken from motion, no stopping time for silence
Amassing idle processes and ignorant banter in constant commotion thrive
Remember that wrapping yourself in truth you established is the only relief
Its like that line you always quoted that, 'death is the only one that deserves you'
Some day I won't wake I'll just shiver in the darkness of the oblivion afterlife
But we both know thats not true, we are justified by a common faith
That something called love can be given to everyone, and that fairness is true
Come now embrace my reality that equality (or the label of love) between us
Is indeed exactly what all Gods intended

You made me want to tear all life apart
Because I didn't think anything could rescue me
As I stood on the edge the fear didn't stop me from the falling
It was the insight that I could modify the lies you swore to me were reality
And thus by myself be set free, to decipher life or nothing in this world at all
Its the truth that we can find in the vengeful deceit,
That by our will's energy we could save ourselves

Its not necessary for God to decipher accurate reality to me
Or shows up to comfort, He can let us exist as human beings
Finding ourselves in the fallen integrity of our broken world
And those who hate us all, how do we rebel back against such aversion
Tolerance for sufferings based on the horror bombs one made
Nothing but fairness or love can give relief its the solution to redeem us
To each other not just to a God who might have been dishonorably crucified

Eternal eclipse in motion, stopping time to silence
Idle processes and ignorant banter in constant commotion
Remember that wrapping yourself in truth you establish is the only relief
Its like that line you always quoted that 'death is the only one that deserves you'
Some day I won't wake I'll just shiver in the darkness of the oblivion afterlife
But we both know thats not true, we are justified by a common faith
That something called love or maybe respect can be given to everyone
Come now embrace my reality that fairness between
Is indeed exactly what all Gods intended

Yet another one after the dozens you set off
No Jihad God will rescue you into a perfect virgin eternity
I hope they rape your soul until you realize the lies you believed
Were the truth of a loving Islam modified to bestow grief, even so I can forgive
Its not souly your fault you were hopnotized and blinded to the core
I only wished you hadn't blown up and ended life in the tragic story of suicide death
I know you were lonely, but you believed their of lies, a version truth modified to spread hate
And like a girl dressed for an epic first date you ran into the cafe and ended that all
Nothing on earth deserves such a death not them or you
Oh well /sigh such things occur when the truth for an objective is modified

Imbued us all with the question, but if we never ask the 'why'
We'll go on following blindly the truth modified which is the grandest of unholy lies
What are these armies coming in droves and waves of destructiveness
Men lacking empathy or love for anything truly shameless in killing
To achieve their own ends no life has meaning accept for their purpose of death
As we are all just trying to live, to go on after that last tragedy
Don't get me wrong, even the western peoples can be the same
Walking slowly mundane through a comfortable life to no legendary love lead end
Hoping You won't allow it again, allowing us space to breath
Pleading to see the finish line ahead, or knowing its our time to go

Unnecessary Evils

Watched that girl sell herself in darkest night
A shadowed alley where he wouldn't let go
Went too far now her mind can't walk away
Caught in the turmoil of a destructive undertow
No one to love her, or cover her minds eye
As during the night's relived rape she cries

Am I the disease known to all as the enemy

If so let me tear myself new amphibian lungs to breath
Let me burn my life down in a cleansing funeral pyre
I want to be free, with these broken wings could I ever fly
Maybe you'll have to shoot me between the eyes so I may see the sun
But if so I won't come back, smashed out brains determine I'm done

She can't breath, cold hands around her neck
Its not the same guy, shes blacking out, and going to die
We drove by, she's usually right there,
But the truth is she won't ever be there again,
We let her bleed, her crimson blood flowed
As during the tortures of rape she died
We are the velvet tear drops as she cried
She lied to set us free, of her so called immorality
But we couldn't love past that claim by other said
She went through hell, and died on a concrete death bed
With whispers of hatred dancing in her decaying head

We are the villains spreading a disease of false love
That suffocates the freedoms of so called immoral, lesser or foreign men
By a code we hold them by, but not our own lives
Letting them die as we ignore the common bonds
That make us all one, we are all equally the same
But thats too hard to live so embrace the ignorance
That could bring love into another's life today

And we are the disease known to 3rd world nations as the enemy
So let me tear myself new amphibian lungs to breath

The lunar dust of liquid metals, of our melted down bullets and guns
Let me burn my life down a sacrifice to ignite a cleansing funeral pyre
I want to see them free, with less broken truces that let children die
They don't have wings to fly away from your weapons
Maybe you'll have to shoot me between the eyes so I may see the sun
But if so I won't come back, smashed out brains determine I'm done
A signal of freedom for those who have none, yes I've given myself up
For freedom, respect, and equality... That is true and virtually in no one

I found you too late, only ashes of your former self remained
An eclipse left over a dying bright light distilled by a deadening memory
Invoking pain you can't let go, as your eyes for the last time close
I couldn't find a way to grasp your life in the undertow
As the next world took you I could only wonder why
What could I have done, to save this body, that held your life
Or for any others that came undone that I missed along my path
To this place to hold your broken body as it came undone

Tear myself new lungs so I can breath with an everlasting scream
I've taken the fall into the cleansing fire, just let me die
Sacrifice myself to free their lives, just let me be
Alone in the alley instead of this girl... I think she was called Valerie
Just let me scream everlastingly as my mind eclipses into death dreams
There God can reveals the answers I need to know
Maybe I'll come back, given the truth of love I must show
Break my entire life and I might still survive, Just let me be
I must spread the truth of equality and love for everyone
Even if that omits me

All's Fall

I felt the light, as it watched man fall
Through eyes that knew tears which made thunder storms
Just as twilight engulfed our eternity in night

Did you see, he toss himself into the ocean waves
It twas an alter boy bearing scaring marks and the key
Wanting to see the forest to lapse into dreams of harmony
He knew the edge bore no more whispers of vacant holy things
No more taunting verbal queues or lingering pains after to redress
The haunting robed ones spake 'blessings' during what we call 'rape'
The priest can't touch you anymore whilst you lie asleep
In your brand new bed called the sea

He still expects it, the intimate murmur of the master's sin
Behind his ears, breathless, the same old sinister words
'Its not as bad as if you had refused'
'This is only for the chosen few'

He was crying, in a closet alone with spiders
If only he hadn't been pressed not to break the silence
Now he's one with the ocean's undertow
No prayer could save him, another innocent life dies
Melded into one with the blood red dawning sky

A fathers screaming cry, 'my son, who let him die'
A velvet tear in the mother's eyes, her pain may never end
The searing open wounds may never stagnate scare or mend
Infinite wisdom cannot repair the tragic cost for a family whose lost
He who raped the body and tortured the mind
A judged of our fair system ruled a slap on the wrist and no hard (jail) time

Who was the victim an innocent child
Or a man who took an oath without knowing
The magnitude of power the vow held, nor the enemy of self
And now the unrelenting humiliation selfish shame

If only all hadn't grown tired of the repetitive sin
The light might have peered inside and began to renew the 'within'
All lives involved to forgive not at first, but maybe in a while
Maybe then the system's justice might have been true
A few years hard time, or a moment with God called 'infinite solitude'
Then we might have began to know the truth, forgiveness
And ourselves!

Free

A one time sentence said in anger
Born of instruments of iron force
Firing fireworks through blazing barrels
Single digit casualties on our side
The system felt no harm, so cause no alarm
Justified by the low cost and highway progress succession rates

Called to jump through hoops... 1, 2, and three
In America where all is calm because the lies claim the free
Born from leadership and bred to control
There is no hidden text of truth
Living in a country of no moral absolutes
Burned the pages past for progress sake, by men in high places

The mic a freedom device breaking the visions of propaganda
To grasp the scope of lies covering our desires
Speech and questions of the congregations gathered
Stand for nothing against as they seek to brand your tongues closed
With the marshal law troops threatening outside your door
Drowned out by the man in the back row whose been lit on fire

Embrace the so called freedom act.
No more jumping through hoops... 1, 2, and three
In America where all is calm because the lies claim the free
Born from leadership and bread to control
There is no hidden text of truth
Living in a country of no morals or peace findings for equal absolutes
Burned the pages past by for progress sake, bye men in high places

Once you were calm, now embrace the so called freedom act
Your brain on fire against the new passing bills,
Designed to be enhance your so called life with cheaper oil prices
Expensive new drugs labeled
'pills that could kill but could cure decease"
Cheaper tax for the rich and no money for your family or rent

Suicide Resume

How inconsiderate it would be applying for life
With suicide written on my resume
Measuring my success by your standards
The amounts of anything I might own
But the physical nothingness gained
Shows my belief in your system of fun
I've become free in death to be uniquely me...

In the cold earth
I'd be free
100% alright you'll see
The worms digest the corpse of me
As the I in me floats slowly
I see that no one ever loved
The true I, I showed me to be

Do you know how bad suicide looks on a resume?
Its the only reason I haven't tried it yet

Suggested suicide on a resume
A truth the world blocks from its heart
Not with love but up with grand selfish hate
At the sight of anyones self inspired suicide
It doesn't matter their worth to save them
Might costs me time or too much emotion
We call them emo, and tell them to 'fuck off,
Grow some balls and digest your loses.'

How inconsiderate it would be applying for life
With suicide written on my resume
They called me emo, as I cried out for love
In front of class, with poems of grace
Asking for fairness between everyone
I broke their hearts on my greatest day
They heard the crash of the gun from the class rooms
As they fueled their ignorant anger talking about me
Behind my back, as they do most every unique one

I say the words disallowed to them
But silence, the metaphoric joke is what I see
They hate feeling of giving of self to fill a need
Of anyone other than their own self inspired lust called 'me'.

Do you know how bad suicide looks on a resume?
Its the only reason I haven't tried it yet

In the cold earth
I'd be free
100% alright you'll see
The worms digest the corpse of me
As the I in me floats slowly
To unknown places I long to see
I might not have ever been loved
Even though I always showed
The true I, I uniquely became as me

I am the lie masquerading as me
Already dead because my father abused me
Drunken rages consumed his mind that night
The eve that metaphoric knife hit my heart
And I gave up on being loved completely
In the bathtub my wrists bled and I died slowly

God I'm so sorry for being me
Take me home as I step from the chair
With this rope around my neck
I've never been holy, I'm a broken down wreck
They call me emo, or gothic, but I'm just uniquely me
Undescribable, so they gave me a generic label instead
I got so tired of labels for nothing but ignorance and hate
I step off the chair, I know the cost.... my soul?
God embrace me as in this world I was at a loss!
I strived to love, but the universe broke me down
All the men demand fairness, but only give to those they accept
Not the teen in drag, nor the poet, outside the clique you pay the costs
The verbal bashings, the detrimental language that brings about this.....
The crimson blood from my nose flowing, as I stepped off with this rope around my neck!

I was too tired of this world
And the hatred of those who claimed to love

Dear God, Her Tragedy

Dear God
I found another one today, the marionette was dying inside
The puppeteer of body was broken in selfish living
While the new lay decomposing of soul, decaying upon the floor
Waited not so long for you God, and she was given up to explore the grave

We all want to believe You are real
We don't know who You are
But we believe, we know better than You,Who You should be......
Towards us all, engaged in charity to change our reality
(to comfort and simple bliss)
Saving those 'good (selfish) people' from the first thrown stone
Exclaiming 'its ok, they were too young to know, any better'
Yes, thats what they say!

Dear God
Could You just speak to me, prove Your out there
Changing my mind from following the neo-evolutionary lies so blindly
Giving me a moral purpose, to share with the hurting people
That should have used a fucking adoption agency
Dear God, I wish that love could mean something, it could be, more than a word
More than a simple label for emotions attached to surreal, but only....
If you are real God.

We all want to believe You are real
We don't know what You are
But we want to believe, We know what you should be
Exchanging our birthing pains for charity to change our reality
From subliminal coded comforts on the TV blinding us from real life 'child tragedy'
Still believing You should save those 'good (unpure) people' from the first thrown stone
But I know, the weaker must die! Just like her chosen lie
Children can't live through the tragedy while the selfish survive!

All pain will be gone soon, the preacher insists, asking for amens, as he spews on
Living for treasures in another world is his dream,
Breathing lies to the X-mother to be in row 3, to conceal his greed
I don't believe this pain will be gone, but maybe it will be a distant memory
It could be, that we'd be better off living for everyone's single moment saving
In the today that could decide their tragedy
Than unspoken invisible comforts of a civilized heaven
That allows us to exist in real life hatred of one another
Just because we decided to test the comfort, and not be brave!

Back to her simple plastic story of a puppet who wasn't designed to be
Alive for long, to enjoy life in a families loving arms
Broken from the forefront defeated in the womb
By a selfish marionette who threw the stem cell research project to the floor
Not a reality of life to breath, and its my choice to choose
No fucking adoption for the stem-cell fetus in you!

Mind of Immortals

Stopping my mind.... Don't begin try
my words could last forever
I could be on earth immortal
Engraved into a piece of parchment
Existing as empowerment in truth for all time

You know we can't stay the same forever
Only impressions of imaginative memories held will linger
I know I must reroute to remain here
Embrace the freedom of an unforeseen tomorrow

Indecision your intellectual stomping ground
Your 'so called life' won't fix itself
(we run from and into myself)
Like those blinded by hate, who cannot see
All else is nothing, embrace my scripture
We are all worth waking for!
(Find the truth)
(I'm not a liar)

Say your fighting to have each day to hold
(Only you determine)
Sing for all people!!! Who are worth something
(You cannot determine)
Pray for ways to enrage your own soul
(Grasp with energies at grace to hold)

You see the news, another got whipped today
Genocide or holocaust its another world, far away
(breaths the lie you embrace)
Shut up, if heavens (or our imbued fucking fairness!)
is true were all worth something
Read a paper proclaims "I'm a liar" believe it! (it gives you comfort)
Don't adjust your intellect to find truth or understand what your told to believe in

Say your fighting to have each day to hold
(Only you determine)
Sing for all people!!! Who are worth everything you are
(You cannot determine)
Pray for ways to reanimate and remake yourself
(Grasp with energies at grace to hold)

I know the scripture your taught breaths comfortability
I believed as you do up until one momentous day
When I saw the truth in all the lives around me,
When I realized the labels you believe in pave the way
For hatred from ignorance of knowing the simple answers,
To questions that dry up and plague our religion today
How can you ignore the truth about this world completely
For what I'm speaking your going to hate me
I desire to breach your intellectually despairing property

Purpose

As I lay dying
I look around to see
The spells of rich men
Wash over my friends
And what used to be me

Somewhere we lost our purpose
We had no reasons, no self control
Our reality censored for ample comfort
And for it, we were prepared to mentally die

And now rather than comfort
I've created my own legend in my will
Driven by spellbinding purpose

Knew there wasn't a lifeline to call
Not a wise word or plea could save you
You closed the door and locked out the grandmaster of visitors
All energy to keep us out, shut the curtains, or we could still see in
Deliver the message that might remind, that could find its way into your heart
Give you....

Somewhere you lost your purpose
You had no reasons, no self control
Your reality censored for ample comfort
And for it, you were prepared to mentally die

Give you a purpose
Bind it with reasons
Why you should still be here
Why you can exceed vastly beyond dreams
Please grasp for the purpose
Come out into the winter, and we will all be here
Come out with us and stand call
We'll care for you, while you search for that purpose!

Introduced

I saw your beauty again while standing there
Listening to you betray me with someone else

Could I see your beauty again
Knowing you've touched another one
Will you lead my heart in circles
As you come home in the middle of night
I lie awake for hours, trying to convince myself...

I can your beauty again while standing there
Watching you betray me with someone else

Who is this man I'm now speaking to
Are you trying to introduce him
Lets go ahead, and get this over with
I'm not scared, so I won't run away

I couldn't see your beauty again knowing your out yet again
Dying here while you betray me with someone else

Theres no need to introduce him
I see the vile poisonous smile as he meanders my way
So your the pillar of evil, the vigilant one
You defiled her beauty for the sake of fucking
I won't ruin your amusing game or chase after her in circuits
You can have her infected heart, resume your sessions of amusement
I'll go on distributing myself over to the progression of lies
People's versions of innocent fuckings, called 'fun'!

I can't see your beauty knowing you've broken our vows of 'one'
Stole my wish leaving me here dying slowly while you betray me

Don't touch my hands as I turn to walk away
I told you don't introduce him, I wasn't afraid to tell you both
'Someday you'll regret these romps of recreation'
I didn't foresee you betray me, now our life is come undone
Welcome to the future you crafted,from your present adaptations
The lies of your explicit entertainment, you labelled 'fun'!

I can't see the worlds beauty knowing it broke the soul in me
Leave me here, dying oh so slowly while watching the earth steal
The last drops of my personal wish, from my energy!

Only Regen

I mimic no one, not hero or bygone past by
Of the facts of fixed time trials that brought us
The fuel for the greatest lie, eternal comfort can be mine
Confront the formula, the withered remains of her soul
Her mind cannot regenerate, nothing left but a shade
The black outline, called phantom, of your forgotten legend
A vacant future now remains, you'll have no 'great day'

I watch as you live to generate, as you fuel the system
Feel the leash around your neck, the comfort you bow to
Money is your life, you live to with that price to generate currency
It is the fuel of syntax to your monetary life
I watch as you live to generate, as you fuel the system

Watch as unknown to knowledge it truly buys you
Broadcast lies you call feelings through created machines
That pay for you, to express the lies you say are true
Set your hope in the rising tides of all thats bound to hell

I watch my own heart regenerate, as I gave up the syntax theory
Darkened is my soul, as I see you wither away slaving to serve
Will your soul's energy ever regenerate, you've poured into a system that only takes
All hope is in your last dime, its all bound together in a seamless rate
You must let it go, it won't ever release you!

At the end of your life it cares not, it will cremate Barrie or incinerate you
Watch now, the machines that only take, rebuild and regenerate!
Not all hope you know is bound to the loving in hate of money that fuels your syntax system
The only structure to its madness is sustain its technical silence that steals from you
Comfort will not aid to generate the real you! Only the weakened state you cling onto
No need for a dreamstate without a personal legend to continue, soon you'll be mundane
A whisper of what could been, but never came to pass into being!

Again!

What is this violence around me
Will it ever really end
Will we ever know a day of peace before the end
Will he, the grand fiend win another individual battle again

The piano breaths calm into the air
Guitar are my armies, striving with strings for joy
A smile on the face of a youth defends
My beliefs that the correlation of truth and voice
Can bring you all to life, as seek live again

Tiny heart beats in our drums
A bass stampede of peaceful feet, forcefully seeking life
Or a freedom beyond this life, a blessed reunion of redemption
Their collaboration, brings forth the only question
Can we bring you to seek, to love life again

What is this violence around me
Can we bring it to an end
Will that fetus breath with rights before it ends
Whose life by force you take in darkness tonight
Could we all know peace before we end
I'd gladly give my life, to die by sword
Or sentenced by pen to death, to allow you all....
To breath it in, and see peace, if ever, as once again!

What are your words for
My hope, to bring freedom in fairness
Possible peace in harmony for all, only once, one day... if ever,
Again!

Eulogy

All my wisdom
The dark consumed
Then and there
My nightmare exceeds
All the hurt I could dream

All these twisted hurts I see
Somethings there twisted inside
As the loving one sings now
My eulogy, the ending poem of me

Tear drops from feelings attached to me
But you never knew me
I was the answer to all the lies of your fears
Instead you brought war with me
Now sing, sing my eulogy!

No one will ever hold arms around me
Only the silent embrace of vacant dreams
As she sings my eulogy

More

Running circles behind angels
They look, like I want to
I can't see how their eyes do
No one can save me, grant me new life
Or break my past betrayals away
I want to feel, to be like..... More

But I know my core broke away
Tonight, when I learned about true hate
My mind watched as he touched you
I breathed, but then I died, I stopped
My tears began to dry up
I won't ever be any...... More

To say what I would no longer do
I'd fall down stairs, to break my life away
Tonight, into oblivion, would I be..... More
I'd rather blow my mind's lights out
Than to imagine my life with the design
The reality of my new fate, you breathed on me
I think I'll breath, and then just stop
Watch me, my skin and bones dry up
No more tears to wipe up
I'm amidst the end, I can't be, any.... More

My Protest Censored

You can't close the doors
Shut your curtains
In reality or your mind
I'll still be there, waiting
You cannot hide from my protests
I won't give in until I die
But I know the reasons
Why you want me censored

I close the gap of time
Forcing a choice
That for so long you denied

I'll find a way, into your heart
Give you a purpose, a reason
So you will stand call
When no one will be there

No more fools pride remains
Only devotion to die for one and all
I'll find that way!
Give you a reason, to stand upright
For all the children of our time

I'll find a way, into your heart
Give you a purpose, a reason
So you will stand call
When no one can be there

Don't cry that your all alone
Your stronger than my
The choice is upon you
Break your own cycle
Breath it in

Chamber of design

Deny myself the world
Crumble into the darkness
Chambers of a blackened void
Halls of a friendless waiting
A sober place of unending sadness
An infinite stillness fills my soul

Imprisoned in my own mind
Seeing so many empty smiles
I'd rather crawl back into the dark
Than see the lie that echoes false light
No serenity in their eyes, only deep shadows cast
The darkness follows me down, as I descend
Into the empty lying smiles of another tomorrow

Demons of their own designs
Nothing about them can remain
Stop me before I bleed out
Sinking into the fathoms
Looking for the inner light of peace
Serenity from my sorrows

Imprisoned in my own mind
Seeing so many empty smiles
I'd rather crawl back into the dark
Than see the lie that echoes false light
No serenity in their eyes, only deep shadows cast
The darkness follows me down, as I descend
Into the empty lying smiles of another tomorrow

Horrifying visions of another's design
Passionate images that haunt my mind
Betrayed, descending into imprisonment
But no one can deliver me, soul or mind
In sorrow created, I must be...!

Into....

I see it falling, all around me
My soul and myself
Its not like I don't have a reason
My flesh is weak, my mind is gone
I know I must not now fall
Into illusion
Into illusion, I fall

I know its not like it should be
Falling completely, into decay
Into the illusion of dismay
I'm not the same as always
And I don't believe I will be... again

Prepare myself for the grand adventure
My flesh is weak, mind is gone
Fleet footed I crawl, into illusion

Into illusion I fall
A dark hidden corner
Of my own soul
Broken down by betrayal
Consequences of a rhythmatic undertow
Burdened from her lies once again
Into illusion we go!
I fall...