Never Never-Chance-Land

No choice to come alive
Shimmer the overhead lights
In glazed over blue eyes
Of my unborn son

I remember the dream once held
Seeing his reflection in your own eyes
Cold skin upon breach worthy of compassion
Now spout lies to justify the yearning
Deny a connection to an unborn’s life
David wherever you are, sorry

Trapped in neverland
Never a choice to live
David child of my dreams
Always still & cold in my arms
No beautiful beating close to my heart
All I ever wanted or believed in
A self-birthed bloodline life
Motherhood by choice denied
My dearest wish of a son
Stolen by my choice

In my dreams
I see the past choices
Decisions I would unmake
Which align me with the dark
You could have been my everything

I remember the dream once held
Seeing his reflection in your own eyes
Cold skin upon breach worthy of compassion
Now spout truth about alternative options
Trauma tied me forever to an unborn life
David wherever you are, sorry

Lying in neverland
Never a choice to live
David son of my dreams
Always still & silent in my arms
No beauty in the heart beat
All I ever wanted & believed in
Was a life self-created to hold
Motherhood my choice denied
My dearest wish stolen by choice