I'd Rather

If you see me along the road
Commit me to little attention
Let me walk by downcast
I am an illusion of a man
An image near death

If heaven is perfect
I abandon the course
Don't wanna go anymore
I deserve the pain inflicted
Eternal solitary confinement

I'd rather walk on alone
Than wound another heart
I'd rather attempt to part the sea
As I plunge head first into the deep
Inhaled last breath before the fall

If heaven is perfect
I abandon the course
Don't wanna go anymore
I deserve the pain inflicted
Eternal solitary confinement

Please father let me die
All I do is cause suffering
My soul to take that I may unwake
Before the front gates of hell
Or running laps around heaven
Until my penance for pain is paid
Eternal solitary confinement

If you see me along the road
Look the other way and don't look back
If you do you'd find a translucent image
Invisible right in front of everyone
Just let me take the plunge
Knife deep like your pain
Deep into the skin

Part the sea
Commit my heart to death
Self inflicted solitary confinement
Should have known my wings were fake
Lucifer pinned them on at birth
In doing so he sealed my fate

I'm no guardian angel
Even as I speak I create a dungeon
Suicide suffering your heart questioning
Lose another life by any means
Couldn't even love you right
Just another lonely man
On his long road to hell